The only ONE mistake i made in my life,

Sacrificed my future for my parents.

And this ONE mistake, this ONE step is making my life messier and harder day by day.

Regret? Yes, very much.

I didn’t feel like this before but nowadays things have been going upside down. I can’t control my feelings.

But it’s okay!!

I got this!!

Everything happens for a reason, ALLAH is with me.

TWO

Left something I shouldn’t,

Because of my parents too,

I don’t want to betray them, 

I made promise so I should keep it,

Parents can control us in everything I guess,

But when it comes to feeling, it’s quite hard,

It have been a year but I can still get teary eyes when I think about it,

But the memories makes me laugh so hard sometimes,

But still cried a river for it.

It have been a year and my heart still aches whenever I think about it. 

But I’m thankful tho, i guess ALLAH protected me.

Assalamualaikum 

 To My Youth by Bol4

Assalamualaikum

Well, life is full of surprises and not always it would come in a good way! Sometimes we might be lucky as the surprise would make us happy but sometimes yeah we just have to accept something that we would never want to happen in our life. 

Let me tell a story. I struggled with myself for a long time moving on to accept the fact I would be only getting married to the person my parents chose not my choice. I am not able to motivate myself for marriage because of that. 

I knew something is really off with this marriage thing I can't find a reason to accept the fact I should fall in love with a random person they ask me to marry. Every single time any guy's family asks for me I'll ask my parents to cut it off, I would not listen to them anything about the guy. I couldn't explain why, but something doesn't feel right for me. I knew that I should accept the fact I have to get married even I'm saying no for now but idk how to explain this feeling. I feel like arrange marriage is like putting my life on the toss, heads I win, tail I lose, what if I get the bad guy? What if that is not the life I want. I can't just run away after right? I want to get married to a person that I know his bad and good behavior. Arrange marriage is just to risky. I always do think getting married to someone we don't know is tough. But whenever I look at my parents, I feel opposite, they're are one of the best couple I could have ever seen in my life. It have been more than 20 years and they're still madly in love with each other. They're sweet, loving, they do fight but they would be fine after few minutes. My mom is really understanding, she is the best, even when my dad is not in the mood, stressed out, she would be always be by his side. They had arranged marriage too. They had been together in all the sorrows and happiness, they're the best example I have and be the only reason I still accepting the fact I would have an arranged marriage.

I'll update here if I did able to go through an arranged marriage!

The only ONE mistake i made in my life,

Sacrificed my future for my parents.

And this ONE mistake, this ONE step is making my life messier and harder day by day.

Regret? Yes, very much.

I didn’t feel like this before but nowadays things have been going upside down. I can’t control my feelings.

But it’s okay!!

I got this!!

Everything happens for a reason, ALLAH is with me.

TWO

Left something I shouldn’t,

Because of my parents too,

I don’t want to betray them, 

I made promise so I should keep it,

Parents can control us in everything I guess,

But when it comes to feeling, it’s quite hard,

It have been a year but I can still get teary eyes when I think about it,

But the memories makes me laugh so hard sometimes,

But still cried a river for it.

It have been a year and my heart still aches whenever I think about it. 

But I’m thankful tho, i guess ALLAH protected me.

Assalamualaikum 

 To My Youth by Bol4

Assalamualaikum

Well, life is full of surprises and not always it would come in a good way! Sometimes we might be lucky as the surprise would make us happy but sometimes yeah we just have to accept something that we would never want to happen in our life. 

Let me tell a story. I struggled with myself for a long time moving on to accept the fact I would be only getting married to the person my parents chose not my choice. I am not able to motivate myself for marriage because of that. 

I knew something is really off with this marriage thing I can't find a reason to accept the fact I should fall in love with a random person they ask me to marry. Every single time any guy's family asks for me I'll ask my parents to cut it off, I would not listen to them anything about the guy. I couldn't explain why, but something doesn't feel right for me. I knew that I should accept the fact I have to get married even I'm saying no for now but idk how to explain this feeling. I feel like arrange marriage is like putting my life on the toss, heads I win, tail I lose, what if I get the bad guy? What if that is not the life I want. I can't just run away after right? I want to get married to a person that I know his bad and good behavior. Arrange marriage is just to risky. I always do think getting married to someone we don't know is tough. But whenever I look at my parents, I feel opposite, they're are one of the best couple I could have ever seen in my life. It have been more than 20 years and they're still madly in love with each other. They're sweet, loving, they do fight but they would be fine after few minutes. My mom is really understanding, she is the best, even when my dad is not in the mood, stressed out, she would be always be by his side. They had arranged marriage too. They had been together in all the sorrows and happiness, they're the best example I have and be the only reason I still accepting the fact I would have an arranged marriage.

I'll update here if I did able to go through an arranged marriage!