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Let it go
Monday, 20 May 2019 at 01:42
Assalamualaikum
How to let go someone out of our mind and heart. I'm so confused seeked for help from online society, many gave me a lot of different ideas and advice which I would like to share here.
As you are in crush on someone and can't get it out of you system? They said time. That's it. Only time can help you. There is no on or off switch, time is the one and only option. It will fade away soon.
I don't know how long it going to take for you as for me, I haven't really moved on.
However, if a lot time passes and you are still feeling it, then you have a to look it back carefully.
Feelings are only less of what it make works. The rest depends on how well each other person deal with their own feelings and emotion. It is also mainly about the level of emotional maturity.
How do you move on? Understand that your feelings for them has become a habit, an addiction, in fact now you feel the withdrawal symptom. We want to do anything we could to end them and may feel so desperate about it.
Instead try to stay busy, but we have to feel relaxed, listen to some of your fav movie. Yes the more relaxed we are, the less we hurt, whether it is emotional or physical.
Understand that they are your habit and that cannot stop thoughts from rising up. You can control whether or not you dwell on them. When you start think about them, you say firmly I do that anymore and turn your attention somewhere else. You must create a new habit so you won't think about them.
As for feelings, the more we think someone else will permanently make us happy, the more miserable we are going to be. So even it feels impossible to tear them out, the key is distancing yourself from that person slowly. Suddenly cutting them off will only hurt you more or hurt the other person. Text them once in a while don't completely ghost them up. Try to have girls days out. Over time the feelings will fade away more and more before you know it, you are over them! Again it won't happen overnight, but you will be there. Hang in there thight!
I think actually I'm not qualified enough to share this here because i haven't really succeeded in this, hopefully soon.
RAYA 2019
Friday, 17 May 2019 at 01:12
Assalamualaikum & hi
Today is officially 12 ramadhan which means we all can already feel the Raya vibes. It's quite a bit earlier right?
I don't know lah if you guys haven't feel the raya vibes yet (because maybe you're a student with exam stress and all). But for me, as I'm in a business industry, i guess? I totally in it! Raya!! We already got a lot of hampers & kuih raya from the companies & also my father's shop started selling variety types of kuih raya today (and there is a lot guys, i want to eat it alllll)
So, when because we are already in the raya vibes, i decided to make a lot of kuih raya this year. But i don't know if i will have enough time or not becase this year I'm hella busy with 2 shops. Plus, i want to khatam al Quran really soon. I have a lot of work but still i want to make kuih raya on my own. Baru betul betul raya kan? 😂 For me, I think Raya is not complete without homemade kuih raya!!! Here is my list of kuih raya i will be doing this year, later i will update whether i did manage to do it all or nah? And also i want to save my recepi here.
1. Butter cookies
2. Almond london
3. Semperit dahlia
4. Semperit
5. Cornfalkes
Being in love as a Muslim
Friday, 10 May 2019 at 01:41
Assalamualaikum
Love feelings with the intention of marrying them and love without the intention of marrying is two different thing, totally. In my opinion, it is all about how you handle it, I'm saying this again firstly when we found someone we should make sure he or she is the one and with the intention of marrying them in mind we should consult our parents before it is too late. You are going to regret when you miss the timing.
But your problem is about conservative parents who fear what you do as a child right?
Islamic verses in Quran prohibit dating but that doesn't say boy s can't befriend with girls, even they are parents or scholars out there forbids this strictly. But if we use our common sense in this, how can we not talk to someone opposite gender in this world. Muslim females and males do and can talk to each other and get to know each other well. If this is not happening how in the world we are supposed to marry them in the first place. But sadly I guess my parents are in the group that doesn't agree with this statement.
As a muslim, love should step into marriage. Some muslims believe in arranged marriage, but guess what that is actually beyond Quran. The Quran itself says the people choose who to marry. The parent can have input but custom, but forcing someone to love and marry a particular person is islamically wrong.
I can totally understand the fear you have to tell your parents about the situation you're in. You might have strict parents as mine. Even nowadays it is so common in this world about being in a relationship. If your parents are easy going you're on the lucky side because they might permit you too see or talk to the boy but with advice and condition for sure. I'm happy for you if you have that kind of parents!! How I wish too haha.
You know how your parents are. If you are afraid of them, it is a shame. But you still want to be with that guy, you have no choice, you still have to tell them. It is worst if they find out by themself which it would surely going to make some scene. Consider yourself carefully and be sure that you actually love the boy with the intention of getting married. It is highly likely your parents will want this and to know the boy is a good kind hearted, wants to be a responsible to you.
But is is also possible for you to get punished, as often what I know from my culture, our parents are strict and hold old tradition views. Before telling your parents, maybe you should seek out help from an islamic society's view.
Control feelings?
Monday, 4 March 2019 at 22:48
Assalamualaikum
Is it okay to fall in love? I wonder it too.
Feelings are not something that we can control, but we can control our actions :)
You will always have someone that you love, because it's your heart and your mind that choose a person based on their looks, action, words and behavior.
But relationship between boys and girls are not acceptable before marriage. Some might say who says dating isn't an option? But that isn't the rule of Allah. Of course it is impossible to not to talk with them, it is normal to talk because we all live together on this planet, but remember physical contact is to be avoided.
Talking to parents is important which I haven't do so because my parents are super duper strict. If you're in a really good open relationship with your parents talk to them first. We can also go out with them, but make sure get a group of friends together to go with you. It doesn't have to be one on one. Don't give yourselves the option of committing zina. If you have good intentions remain strong. There is no harm in falling in love.
But, we have to remember that we will meet a lot of people, we will have different feelings, we will experience a lot of relationships. My advice is, live your life normally but remember that you value a lot, not any one can hear your sweet words, not any one can see your attractive features, not any one can touch you, be precious.
It can only be that person you chose yourself, the one that will love you dearly, the one that is willing to do anything for you, the one you chose as your husband. It's a great deal. think about it carefully. And know more about your religion.
Relationship like this usually have a mysterious ending or it will never end. That is why we take marriage seriously. We pray and ask Allah if it was a good decision. We observe our partners and see if we will be good together.
Majlis Khatan Adik
Monday, 25 February 2019 at 00:32
Assalamualaikum & hai,
Dalam family saya, kitorang akan sambut majlis khatan ni agak special sikit. Sampai kadang-kadang orang terkejut tengok cara kitorang sambut. Hahaha. Kitorang orang mamak (indian muslim) memang macam ni yee. So adik saya tiga tiga laki. Dua orang Khatan masa saya form 1 tak silap so cam tak ingat sangat. Tapi diorang pun ada pelamin, jemput 500 org makan and etc. But sekarang, adik bongsu saya yg teramat manja ni... MashaAllah.. Pening kepala seh. My dad terlalu manjakan dia so majlis pun dah ala ala majlis kahwin sudahh.
At first, kitorang (ayh, mak, pakcik, makcik, saudara mara, sepupu sepapat) semuanya dah meeting untuk kali pertama sebulan lebih awal untuk majlis ni. HAHAHA. Asalnya, bercadang nak jemput 200 org SAHAJA, then pak cik saya kat KL suruh jemput je semua puak puak kami dari Pulau pinang, Ipoh, Taiping, KL & etc. Saudara mara saya memang ramai. Infiniti orang. Siapa kenal saya taulah ramai tu level bape. Hahaha. So listnya jadilah 400 orang. Tak kisahlah, dapatlah kitorang eratkan lagi silaturahim dengan saudara mara kan (even sebenarnya tak tau nak panggil diorang apa, tak kenal tapi saudara, diorang pun tak kenal saya, saya pun tak kenal diorang).
Kitorang bincang atur cara majlis, ceh wahhh memang dah macam kerja kahwin.
2pm - Yasin, doa selamat & tazkirah.
3pm - Berarak bersama 120 adik adik tahfiz sambil berselawat
4pm- Makan makan sambil menghayati qasidah dari kumpulan Qasidah Nur Muhibbin, Ustaz Sharil
Adik sampai depan rumah je, ada kawan ayah buat silat selamat datang & bila adik masuk duduk atas pelamin je mula qasidah. Masa yang sama tetamu dah start makan. Bayangkanlah ayah jemput dekat 400 orang dan yang datang 800 orang. HAHAHA. HURU HARA WEYYY. Sebab pinggan makan ada 500 je. Then suddenly tak cukup, plastik sampah tak cukup, air pun sama. So lari pergi bukak kedai, nasib baik kedai dekat dengan rumah. Naib baik nasi cukup & ada lebih, syukur sangat sangat. Sebab adik adik tahfiz ramai sangat, kesian diorang kalau tak dapat. Yelah, kita jemput orang kan, kalau tak dapat bagi semua makan, malu kot.
Alhamdulillah settle semua. Majlis berjalan macam biasa. Sebelum adik mula berarak, ada tazkirah ringkas dari Ustaz Shariful Anam. Saya pun tak sempat dengar kat rumah, tapi ada orang ambik video. Best ceramah dia.
Yang palinggggg saya rasa sedih tu pasal makanan!! Makanan ada banyakkkk jenis & banyak sangat but sepanjang majlis tu saya tak dapat makan apa apa. Last last kitorang gi mcd je. Lols. Ada satee, rojak, roti jala, briyani, ayam masak merah, daging masak apa tak tahu (tak sempat tengok pun), ketupat, rendang, buah anggur, buah delima, kuih ada 4 jenis, brownies ada 2 jenis. Dalam list atas tu satu pun saya tak dapat. Hahahah sedih beb. Sebab asalnya saya siap tangguh tarikh nak cabut gigi sebab nak menikmati makanan makanan yang ada masa majlis. Hampeh.
Saudara mara ramai, kawan kawan pun ramai, Alhamdullilah, majlis berjalan lancar. Petang tu, kitorang sambut birthday anak saudara, Al Khattab turns 2!! Petang tu pun dah agak hura hara sikit, so tak sempat nak bergambar nak hias apa apa, even dah siap beli perhiasan nak hias tempat masa nak potong kek tu. Tak kesampaian, masa tu pulak ada keluarga kawan saya datang. Humairah sekeluarga datang. Lama sangat tak jumpe dia, sempat jugak lah catch up sikit dengan dia. Mak Syafiqa & Adawiyah ada datang, Alhamdulillah dapat layan dengan baik, siap berarak sama sama sambil selawat. Petang tu Ain & ayah dia pun ada datang, serious tak sempat nak layan dia. Rasa bersalah gila, bayangkan dia datang saya tak dapat layan sangat, tapi esoknya abang dia kawin, saya, & saudara saya semua pergi majlis kahwin abang dia lambat. Pergi pulak masa meja semua dah siap kemas. Sebab kat rumah saudara mara ramai belum balik, kene masak & layan tetamu. Tapi ayah Ain siap pasang balik meja & hidang makan untuk kitorang. Siap dapat kek pulak. Malu seh, yalah, diorang datang berdua je pun kita tak sempat layan. Ain..oh Ain. Sayang awak Ain.
Biasanya kan kalau majlis apa apa kat rumah yang girls, tolong dalam rumah kan? But masa majlis haritu, oleh sebab ayah dah jemput ramaiiii sangat orang, sampai saya pun terpaksa turun padang. Hahaha. Tanpa segan silu layan tetamu yang tak kenal pun, macamlah saya peramah sangat. Siap mengarah orang buat kerja lagi, amek kausss!! Malam before majlis, kitorang, saudara mara je, buat tahlil bacaan yasin untuk semua arwah arwah dalam family kitorang, list panjang, termasuk nama nenek moyang. Kitorang baca yasin pukul 12.30 tengah malam. Tak pernah dibuat orang. Hahahaha, kitorang masing-masing tutup kedai dulu. Lepas yasin kitorang makan sama sama tengah malam buta tu kat khemah luar rumah tu. Sweet memories.
Nak cerita pasal kos pulak, manalah tau ada yang nak buat majlis macam ni kan? Btw, lupa nak cakap masak semua dekat rumah, tak ambik catering pun, ayah yang masak. Jimat duit & besttt!!! Sebab dapat rewang sama sama.
Pelamin - RM580
Khemah - RM900
Qasidah - RM300
Sewa buffet - Ada orang sponsor
Ustaz - Seikhlas hati korang
Homestay - RM300 (Ada saudara stay)
Bas untuk adik adik tahfiz - RM200
Baju - RM500 ( Set baju melayu 4 orang, samping & tanjak)
Barang masak - ambik kat kedai sendiri, so tak kira kos ^^
Satee - RM910
Alaaa, memang list tak habis. Banyak keluar duit. Belum majlis kawin guys, baru majlis khatan. Sekali sekala tak pelah, bukannya ada pembaziran pun. Masa balik kan tetamu bagi duit masa salam kan, duit salam kaut. Ramai orang bagi dekat saya, sebab mak & ayah terlalu sibuk, kakak pulak sibuk kat dalam. Lepas 5 hari baru teringat pasal duit tu, hahaha. Nasib baik ingat.
Best tau buat majlis macam ni, meriah, dapat eratkan silaturahim, bila je dapat kumpul rqamai ramai macam ni. Penat tu memang penat. Lepas majlis, kitorang semua terus tak sihat, demam, muntah-muntah, cirit birit. Semua geng kitorang yang turun padang je. Yang dari Ipoh, KL. Kesian my sis & anak anak dia. Dahlah penat travel, lepastu baby dua dua tak sihat, dengan dia pun sama. Tak boleh lupa. Sama sama semua sakit. Ada yang kata kene buatan orang lah apalah. Sampai kitorang semua masuk rumah je macam tak sihat. Tapi Alhamdullilah, lepas 3 hari semua dah sihat. Takde bende rasenya, semua lepak buat kerja kot.
Korang boleh check kat link yang saya bagi ni, kalau nak tengok majlis yang saya cerita ni macam mana.
Qasidah - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfCmyeTEbwA
Ceramah & Majlis - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50Kky7JDXrI
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| Korang boleh dengar ceramah dia kat link saya bagi kat atas. |
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| My cute brother |
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Lastly, Me & selfie. Haha XD
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Finally, saya update entry ni selepas sekian lama saya simpan sebagai draft. Bye, Assalmualaikum.
A lot of things happened recently
Wednesday, 13 February 2019 at 21:49
Assalamualaikum & hi
I miss sharing everything here so much as recently my schedule are packed so i don't have enough time to share my story here.
But let me summaries it to share it to you guys & as my own memory too, i don't want to forget all the things happened tho, in future i can get my memories back here, i guess?
There are a lot of things i want to share, really don't know where to start. Should i start from the bad thing or good thing?
Past few weeks, my grandma's brother, which i call "appa" (grandpa) came to Malaysia, all the way from India, to settle down here. He had been thrown away by his daughter because of money issue. Then, he came to Malaysia as he thought he can stay at his sister's children house which is my mom's siblings at Pulau Pinang. But he didn't knew, everyone was struggling, everyone have their own problems going on, they can't even feed themselves enough, cause busy, no time & many more. My uncle lost his son (my cousin, same age) & still struggling tho, plus, he was busy with his daughter marriage. I don't know who i should pity, grandpa? Uncle? Aunt? My dad? Mom? Myself? Next, if he want to stay at my aunt's house (even she was welcoming) my aunt herself was struggling at maximum as she was not in good health condition. As my family, we had our issues going on at that moment to. As a conclusion i can say that no one did really volunteer to took care of him.
My father helped him to took care of his visa, found a work & place to stay. Even i knew my father really wanted to help him as he can, but i also knew that my grandpa is not in a good enough condition to work, he CAN'T work. He can't hear well, how can he work? Once he was a famous cook at his place but now..
After the wedding, he came to my place, he wanted to stay with us for a while. He really loves us. The day he came, my parents went to Penang. The next day he shared all his problem with me & my mother. He told us he was mentally hurt. He talked non stop about his worries. But i think he only shared 20% of his worries. He don't want us to feel bad for him. The next day he kept on asking me for a drive, he said he really wanted to go for a ride with me. But i was busy at that time. I regret. I promised him i will take him for a ride tomorrow. Now i remember few months ago he called me from India & asked me if i have a licence so that when he come to Malaysia i can take him out
Wednesday, at around 8pm my sister called me and asked me to come asap to my father shop. I was shocked as i can hear crying sound at the background. I really can't forgot how i was driving back then, i was shivering, i was scared. I managed to go tho.
My sister told me, my grandpa involved in an accident, a super bike hit him. He was walking back from mosque after magrib prayer. It was just in front of my father's shop, and my brothers all was there, when the accident happened. They were shocked. The bike was super speed so when the accident happened both of them....
The night after the accident, we went to hospital, he was still in the yellow zone. Is it because he was old? He was in a yellow zone even he was so critical. And the super bike guy was in red zone. Even he was not that critical. My grandpa's both arm & leg & eyes & nose and his head was seriously injured.
The next day he was sent to XXX Hospital & all the things they cared about was only money. Only because he was a foreigner so the cost is higher there and the doc was only talking about the cost not how's my grandpa condition. They (doctors) didn't want to touch his head, they wanted us to pay for minor things like leg, arm, nose & eyes. Because they knew if they touch my grandpa head, he can't survive. He is 73 yo. He was really at his maximum & all they cared about was money. The total cost their were talking was about 40 to 50k.
At thursday, 1.55pm he was gone. He can't take it anymore. But he was smiling at the moment. His smile was the sweetest smile ever. We can't even cry when we saw his smiling face. It was hard to believe at the first. But he was called by Allah on the way his was walking back from prayers. MashaAllah.
I really can't go in detail about this. Bye, Assalamualaikum.
A conversation
Wednesday, 2 January 2019 at 18:44
Assalamualaikum
Her: I've noticed you've been praying more, why? Him: I pray your name is written next to mine.
Her: But still, what do you see in me? Him: I see you with my heart not with my eyes.
Her: Do you dream about me? Him: It wasn't dream to be with you, It was a prayer.
Her: What if we ended even before we started? Him: You are the only story that I never want to end.
Her: I don't get how you express your love for me with this distance? Him: You might be wanted me to express my love in words but I mention you in my prayers.
Her: What is your love language? Him: I prayed for you.
Her: How much do you love me? Him: I'm ready to take all of your troubles and sadness away, I want to fill you with heart filled with joy.
Her: Do you really mention my name in your prayers? Him: Forever & always.
Her: But why? Him: Pray secretly for those who you love, love is a prayer.
Her: But why me? There are many other pretty girls out there? Him: My desire is to see you in Jannah and that is my love for you. I want to hold your hand in Jannah.
May Allah bless us.
Tooth extraction for braces
Wednesday, 26 December 2018 at 01:26
Assalamualaikum & hi,
Today i would like to share about my experience of removing my tooth for the first time ever & i got 2 of my tooth removed at the same time. Brave enough huh? So, before i went to my ortho dental appointment, i didn't knew 2 of my tooth will be removed soon! I didn't mentally & physically prepared for it. I thought i would get my braces tighten and yeah, so i cleaned my teeth at house and went to the dental clinic as usual.
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| So true, i would be so lazy for the whole month & brush my teeth extra long on the day i have appointment. |
When the doctor checked my teeth, he asked me if i want to get my tooth removed today & i was like why not. The doctor, started his work, hi gave me an injection of anesthesia, so i didn't felt anything during the process of tooth extraction. He gave me more than 4 injection guys!! But it is not that painful, so don't worry. It will feel like you got bitten by ants. Believe me, but yes it is not painful when he gave an injection at your gum or lips, but it really painful when he inject me at the palate. Auchhh!! Hell no man. He injected me twice there while saying "sorry Sakinah, it will hurt".
Then i don't know what he did, but then a dental assistant came and held my head. I was blur, like what's going on, why are you holding my head?? At that moment the doctor pulled of my tooth. Seriously, i didn't felt anything other then confused why my head being held. The doctor did everything perfectly. But there was blood everywhere.
That was a lot of blood. What a waste, my blood!! The blood didn't stop when i was waiting outside, i went to toilet for a few times to clean up and wipe my bloods. Then the doctor called me and he changed my cotton and he dipped the cotton in hot water to help me to stop the blood. That's it, it wasn't thattt scary. The pain after?? I had none, i didn't feel anything till now, it's the day 2 after tooth extraction. I'm taking the medicine the doctor give me correctly. So if you guys, just had your teeth removed, make sure you take your medicine properly so you won't feel any pain like me. That's all, & yeah maybe i will got more tooth removed in my next appointment, maybe, i'm not sure. As for the next entry i would like to share about my experience in doing RCT Okayy, Bye.
** Will update abt RCT later ^^
Patience
at 00:29
Assalamualaikum!!
I said; "I will wait for halal, halal is better.." Someone said; "I will ask Allah for you twice, once in this world and once in Jannah..."
Ya Allah. make the outcome worth the wait,
Patience is the key,
I'm doing this for the sake of my parents & Allah,
Crush or love
Thursday, 20 December 2018 at 00:55
Assalamualaikum
Crushes are completely natural. It is just how we deal with them is important. Crushes are just that. A short term attraction to opposite gender which might get over time or might be we actually fall for them real hard?
Technically, in Islam, we are not allowed to mingle with the opposite gender. We also don't go date, But we can totally talk to someone of the opposite gender with respect, it would be unwise to emotionally get attached to someone you're not planning to get married which I see is quite common nowadays.
Love is of course a very difficult feeling to explain as I'm not an expert in it. For me love is about those moments, which fill warmth in the heart.
Some really confused with love and crush. If it isn't love it could be a simple attraction or a liking. Or it could be emptiness, loneliness which that feelings isn't real but more of a distraction. And it could be a "love" for an image created in one's mind, a far better version of the actual person. If you're in a state of denial which i think it is worst because you could hurt yourself in the process and possibly the other person too. Nothing is better than being truly mindful and aware of our emotions and feelings. Accepting our thoughts and sitting with them, not be afraid of them, not judging them. Just listen closely and being honest with ourselves. A thing that matters a lot and avoids heartache and pain.
Crush isn't considered love, it is not a genuine feelings, it is a warning. Or you are wondering what feelings you have for someone and that could be you think of them as friend, but are around them them so much you can't place your feelings, or something along these lines. Or you are wondering what is another word for love, but it doesn't have strong connections which could mean that you like them, or they like you, which isn't a crush, and it is not true love, but rather something in between. It is defined differently between people.
First time doing henna design.
Tuesday, 4 December 2018 at 02:44
Assalamualaikum & hi,
I'm feeling proud of myself right now. Me myself who don't even can draw a straight line properly, finally did my henna on my own. Lol. As i told in my previous post, i have been jealous of people who are talented in doing henna design. Huhuhu.
For the first attempt, i think my design can be accepted tho. Before i do my henna, i tried it on paper for a thousand times and at last i fed up with myself because it turn out bad. But then, my mom said just give it a try. Tadaaa
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| My first try on paper |
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| This henna, my mom bought for me from Mekah. |
Okayy guys bye!! Wait for my next entry, i will share about my brother's Khantan Ceremony.
My problems with braces!!
Monday, 26 November 2018 at 00:47
Assalamualaikum,
Hi, after more than 1 month i wore braces. Many things changed in my life for sure. But...there are are a lot of things i wished i knew before i wore braces. My sister & my friends who also wear braces told me that it's a common problem. But stillll... i'm not used to it.
1. Say no for chewy caramel!!
As for me it is really hard to not take any sweets because my father owns a shop, and i'm taking care of it a lot now. Since i'm at cashier for at least 9 hour a day, i just can't stop myself from eating chewy sweets. But then, it will stick at my braces & have to clean my teeth again and again. So, eating chewy caramel is a nightmare now. Hope i will get used to it soon.
2. Dry lips
This one is so so bad for me as my lips is already 24/7 dry. Even before i this my lips will literally bleed because it's to dry. And now, i don't even want to say how bad is my lips condition is!! Vaseline is helpful tho.
3. No more big bite of burger!!
Don't want to talk about this. Huh, i can't even take a bite of an apple, why bother about burger? *face palm*
4. I think i'm at the Dental clinic all the time.
I spend my time a lot there. Seriously, my new bestie are people from the dental clinic i got my braces.
5. My brackets keep on popping off!!
I hate this, well every single person who wearing braces hate this situation, i guess? I have to go back to my orthodontist, once again, and get it fixed. Plus, every single time it's broken the duration i have to wear braces will be longer.
6. The struggle to answer people question.
It's only been one month and i got sick of the same question every single day. ( how i feel, is it painful or not, cost, where i got my braces and bla bla bla) Sick of it!! I can accept it when the person who ask is my family members or friend, but when a strangers started to ask i feel likee..."ugh, stop it". And when when that friend with perfect teeth goes like " I want to wear braces badly". Then, i have to be like "you don't do that, definitely don't"
7. Food get stuck everywhere.
They are a lot of food are forbidden when you're braces. One of it is popcorn. I love popcorn and i can't handle this!! Sometimes, i just ignore the problem i have to face and eat it. What i do even it's disgusting, every time i had done my meal. I will drink some water to clean the food that stuck & swallow it. I'm sorry, i do that.
8. THE RUBBER BAND
It's supper duper uncomfortable when i wear it plus i can't talk or even eat properly. I rarely wear it. Then when i go to the dental clinic, the doctor will be "Please wear rubber band, or else you have to wear braces longer, bla bla bla"
9. A lot of mouth ulcers!
It's depends on how's you're teeth condition is. My friend always got ulcer, i rarely got. But to avoid this, you can put some wax on the wire at the end & bracket.
10. The pain when you just tightened your braces.
It's a torture because of the pressure the teeth need to handle is just too much, but it is only for a few days. I can endure it well, and surely you guys will too!!
Road to 2 month with braces and my journey is still long to go!
I don't understand why the doctor can understand me very well. Lol
No time!
Tuesday, 20 November 2018 at 01:30
Assalamualaikum,
Recently I'm so busy, so i have no time to update anything here. Currently I'm editing video of my brothers "Khatan ceremony". The video was taken 7 years ago but nobody edited, the video have about 50 separate part!!. I'm going crazy to edit it, cause i have to cut,mute,spit, add animation, add music to this video. At first it was not easy at all but i'm doing okay now. I'm using Open Shot video editor. This one helps me a lot, because it is free and no watermark after we finish and download our project. Now, i'm going to continue to edit the video. I have 1 week to finish this video, so that we can watch this video with our relatives next week as they are all coming for my small brother "Khatan ceremony"
Bye!!
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| This is how it's look like, i'm half done :) |
My favourite Indian sweets
Saturday, 17 November 2018 at 00:54
Assalamualaikum,
Yesterday i went shopping with my family for my brother upcoming ceremony? Majlis berkhatan. We went to Jakel, Kamdar, Angsana, Gayatri and etc but on the way back, we saw a INDIAN SWEET SHOP. It's my first time seeing it here, the shop is near to city square, behind Amma Restaurant. It's called JJ Sweet. I thought there was no Indian sweet shop in Jb, this is the first shop they opened here & they just opened 3 month ago.
In Malaysia, we rarely see a shop that literally sell only sweets, cs normally they will sell sweets at indian restaurant so there are less choice. Usually i won't get what i wanted there.
The uncle and aunty at that shop was really kind, they gave us a lot of freebies. We tasted a lot of sweets there for free. It was really nice. Last week i went to 7 spicy at Danga Bay and i tried Gulab Jamun for the first time, it was hella sweet and surely not my taste. But then at that shop they gave us gulab jamun to try and it was different, it was not thhhaat sweet as i ate before.
Actually my family rarely eat indian sweets. We only eat when we or anybody of our relatives goes to India & they will bring back sweets as souvenir. It's very unhealthy because it is full of sugar and yet we can't resist it taste lol.
If the sweets names are wrong please help me by commenting the real one cause i just name as how i pronounce it.
1. Palkova
This one is google image, palkova usually look like this but there is another one and im not sure if taht is also palkova or not.
This one also palkova, it can be in any shape. I bought this at that shop i mentioned earlier. This one taste soooo good. My favourite ever!!!
2. Kesari
Kesari is my fav too. Omg i crav for it always & i love kesari that my mom do. Especially rava kesari wowww. I think this is the easiest sweet that can be prepared. You can buy the ready made one, just add ghee and water and cook, i guess? I always see my mom do that before. But now she can do it herself, no need ready made one, more delicious of course! From what i see, she use rava flour ( tepung suji), ghee (minyak sapi), badam & raisin. And she roast the rava flour in ghee, sugar, water and bla bla bla. But i think the ratio of water, flour & sugar is important. I think i can make my own kesari. Lol.
This picture i took at 7 Spice ( Danga Bay), verrry verry nice. I love ittt. I will go again just to eat kesari, milkshake and chicken tikka masala. Im craving!! But if you guys go the better i remind you first, the food there is awesome same goes to the price. Sometimes for only 4 people it can cost RM600. It depends on what you eat. Last week, me, my sis & my father we ate there and cost us RM300 ( we tapau Chetinatu crab ). The crab was RM120. So it was okay for what we ate.
3. Jelebi
It not my top fav, but i can eat one. It's my bro fav sweet. Jelebi is his life. The picture below is from google image, yesterday we bought jelebi but he ate it faster. I think he got scared if i ask for it.
4. Gulab Jamun
Also not my fav, but it was really nice. This one i ate at 7 Spice, RM10.
5. Soan papdi
I cryyyy. This is my favourite. Me and my sister always call it paper sweet, cause you know when you eat it you can slice it like paper. What am i saying? Hahaha. I rarely got to eat this. This one taste better in India.
There is more but i don't really know their names. So maybe i will update it later. The pic below is the shop i mentioned. Trust me, they make good sweets.
*UPDATED*
Finnaly i got sweet from india!! My uncle went there, and i get to eat soan papdi!!
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I just write what i feel 👀
Friday, 16 November 2018 at 06:35
Assalamualaikum!!
I don't think i could ever feel like this, The way you treat, I know i don't deserve this, Actually i want this feeling to stop growing, It's dangerous for people like me, I don't want to give a fake hope neither want you to wait for me.
The end
at 06:23
Assalamualaikum
The end, life of Matriculation ended peacefully. I had so much fun and learnt so many new things in life, which makes my eyes wide open and see how the actual world look like. This 1 year was my first time ever leaving my family and staying at dormitory. At first i had so much hard time to deal with my homesickness, i kept on calling my parents 24/7 and cry. My dad would come if i cry so bad, he literally came twice a week to see me. Guess what the first few months there, i would go back every single week and every single holiday i get even it is for one day.
I'm so thankful because i meet a lot of great peoples there that left positive impact in my life. My classmates, roommates, lecturers and even the caffe staff, just everyone there was so kind, sporting and understanding. I overcame my homesick feeling with their advices. I became so close with my classmates & roommate. We spend 24/7 of our together. We study, gossip, pray, eat, outing, and a lot more activities together.
There are too many sweet memories i have in my mind right now, there are too many and i could never list it out but there was a lot of hard, bitter memories too. I glad i had so much fun there because i kind of regretted a lot the fact i didn't have so much "fun" memories in my high school because we were busy studying and i was kind of in control of my parents. But this doesn't mean i did something bad behind my parents back, it is just i had fun, my parents are strict, they are kind of allergic to "fun", just joking.
I balanced well both in studying and having fun, my results in matriculation was not bad, Alhamdulilah, thanks to my hard work and my classmates, roommates & lecturer too for all the knowledge they shared to me.
InshaALLAH, let see what Allah plans for me in future. I'm eagerly waiting to have so much fun in my next destination :)
Resepi Butter Cookies!! 🍪 ( tanpa telur)
Thursday, 15 November 2018 at 00:17
Assalamualaikum & hye. Entry kalini nak share resepi butter cookies yg saya selalu buat sbb my family suka sangat sangat. If buat 1 balang penuh satu malam je dah habis hahaha. Resepi ni terlalu mudah sesiapa pun boleh buat dengan senang.
Bahan-bahannya:
250gm butter ( 1 buku )
90gm gula icing
280gm tepung gandum
1/2 sudu kecil baking powder
2 sudu kecil esen vanilla
Step by step :
1. Putar butter, gula icing sampai putih.
2. Masa putar tu, masukkan tepung gandum, esen vanila dan baking powder sedikit demi sedikit.
3. Kemudian, masukkan adunan itu dalam peti ais selama 20 minit.
4. Bentukkan adunan ikut suka korang, letaklah chocolate chop, badam or apa apa je.
5. Bakar suhu 160 selama 12 minit.
Doh untuk cookies ni agak mebik ye, susah sikit nak buat bentuk, so kepal2 je. Hehehe. And sebenarnya resepi ni saya dapat dari satu blogger jugak, cuma saya tak ingat nama blog dia bagi kredit. Even saya ubah but still it's hee my own recepi. Sekian, bye.
Saya lupa nak cakap terima kasih kpd sesiapa yg mengunjungi blog saya, sebab past few days saya tengok overview stat blog ni ada jugak yang membaca, lol. Saya buat sekadar suka suka sbb saya bosan jaga kaunter kt kedai. Tq again.
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Labels: butter cookies, resepi
Deep secret
Wednesday, 14 November 2018 at 21:07
Assalamualaikum,
I have a deep secret that i won't ever share to anybody. It happened when i was 5 or 6 yo i guess. Yes, it was when i was a little innocent kid that don't even know what is right and wrong. Now I'm 19 and until now im keeping it as my top secret. Hmm, seriously i didn't know who i should share it with at that time, and i guess my mom knows it? I guess... But she didn't ask anything so maybe she just ignored it thinking that it was nothing or it was just a small matter. But it really impacted me so much as i thought of going to caunseling. But i didn't go. I don't know if people can understand what i feel. Like now also, it's not like im going to share the secret here. I'm just telling you guys what i feel because of the secret. People around me see me as a cheerful & talkative person but deep inside me there is something torturing me a little, thank god it's not torturing me now because i think i feel better after i read a story similar to my secret, and the person asked others thought of his/her story, and others said it was not his/her fault, and saying that it was nothing & don't worry. It calmed me, Alhamdullilah. When i think back, it was really not my fault. I hope i will keep on being positive abt this in future too. 🌸🌸 The reason why i didn't share it to anyone is because i have no idea if my memory deceives me or not which if i tell anyone i will be a liar, and i don't want to. Maybe it was a dream or nightmare and I hope so it was.
🌸🌸 Whoever reading this and you know me, don't ask me abt this, cause i don't like to talk abt this. But don't worry it's not like my secret is reaaaallly bad like i have been a thief,kidnapped, molested, or anything bad than that. Seriously don't worry. Anndd sorry if my english was bad. Thanks for reading, bye.
Labels: deep secret, my secret
Ada apa dalam syurga?
Tuesday, 13 November 2018 at 22:41
Assalamualaikum & hi. Harini saya nak kongsi something yang saya dapat dari satu ceramah yg saya dgr. So bila saya share kt sini saya sendiri dpt ingat balik point2 penting dia.
Bagi saya lah, bila saya dengar ceramah pasal syurga saya akan bersungguh sungguh nak beribadah. Saya try hard nak bangun malam nak tahajud, solat sunat semua. Sebab apa, sebab tau semua tu ada ganjaran yg hebat nanti. Benda wajib memang kita semua buat. Tapi bende sunat ni mmg payah sikit kan. Kalau yg dah start buat tu harap kita sama sama istiqamah.
Kalau saya dengar or baca anything abt neraka. Kekadang sampai menangis sbb takut. Takut sangat dengan azab azab Allah dkt neraka. Kecut habis. Zaman skrg susah nak elakkan diri dari buat dosa. Ada je dosa yg kita buat. Mengumpat orang ke tak tutup aurat dgn sempurna ke. Ade jelah. Semoga kita semua terus istiqamah untuk jauhkan diri dari larangan Allah.
Korang tau tak syurga ada 100 tingkat setiap tingkat jarak dia mcm langit dengan bumi. MashaAllah.
Apa ada dalam syurga?
1. Bidadari
Bidadari ni bukan manusia mahupun malaikat. Allah perintahkan mereka jadi. Maka.. Jadilah mereka. Bidadari tidak dilahirkan, tidak beranak & tidak mempunyai keturunan. Rasulullah pernah bersabda " Jika salah seorang bidadari turun ke bumi dari syura, bumi akan terang benderang tanpa matahari & berbau harum " Bidadari ni mmg secantik cantik kejadian. Tau tak, isteri tak akan ada perasaan cemburu bila suaminya didampingi bidadari. Wow. Dan suami pun takkan cemburu bila isteri dia ditemani pemuda tampan. Setiap penghuni syurga ditemani at least dua bidadari & org yg mati syahid akan ditemani 72 bidadari. Lagi kelebihan org yg mati syahid, dia boleh tarik 70 orang ahli keluarganya yg ada masuk neraka ke dalam syurga. Allahuakhbar. Allah menciptakan bidadari ini supaya manusia ada sifat tamak untuk beramal ibadah dan untuk dapatkan ganjaran kelak.
2. Makan & minum disyurga.
Manusia tidak akan berasa haus atau lapar dalam syurga. Ini kerana sebelum masuk alam syurga manusia minum air dari telaga haud. Cukup minum seteguk air manusia takkan rasa haus selamanya. Manusia makan dan minum di syurga bukan sebab lapar, tapi tu nikmat yg mereka dapat sbb berjaya elakkan diri dari makan or minum bende yg haram. Di syurga burung burung akan mengelilingi manusia lalu mengoda manusia agar manusia memilihnya untuk dimakan. Setiap burung tu akan dia bukak sayapnya yg berwarna warni & besar tu utk mempromosikan diri dia. Dia mahu dimakan oleh ahli syurga.
3. Music di syurga
Di syurga akan ada bidadari bidadari yg bersuara merdu utk manusia. Jika dia meludah, ludah dia boleh membuatkan manis 7 lautan. Macam tu sekali manis suara dia.
4. Pohon syurga
Rasullulaj pernah bersabda di syura ada pohon yg berjalan dibawah bayangan seseorang selama 100 tahun tanpa putus naungan. Pohon thuna, pohon yg tidak pernah kering dahannya, tidak pernah gugur daunnya, tidak pernah rosak buahnya, buahnya dekat, ada 70 000 dahan. Pohon berasal dari perak dan daunnya sutera.
5. Sungai sungai di syurga
Di syurga air sungai berupa susu, madu. Telaga Al Kautsar pulak, airnya lebih putih dari susu dan salju, manisnya lebih manis dari madu.
Ada lagi yang ustaz cakap tapi saya kurang pasti, point yg kt atas ni pun saya rujuk balik kt web jais. Banyak lagi keindahan syurga yg ada kt web jais korang boleh baca kt sini. Sekian, bye. Labels: nikmat syurga, syurga
Ops terbuang handbag 👜
at 05:52
Assalamualaikum and hai semua. Entry kali ni saya nak cerita pasal my precious purse. It happened 3 month ago.
Saya ni jenis tak tukar2 purse or handbag. If dah beli 1 saya akan guna sampai lah koyak rabak. Setakat ni purse ni tahun ni masuk purse ke 3. Purse yg 1st saya pakai paul smith wallet. Masa saya darjah 6. Blue in colour, even dah koyak saya still simpan sampai sekarang. Then saya guna purse cikai je beli kt pasar malam. Pakai 2,3 tahun and last last masuk tong sampah. Ergh.
Purse saya tu saya tumpang kat beg kakak saya and dia ter..... buang guys. Hope my kakak tk baca lah blog saya. Hahaha. Dalam beg tu ada kami punya purse kunci rumah dia, power bank and etc. 3 hari lps dah buang beg tu baru perasan beg dia hilang. Lol. So sampah dah letak luar and swm dah bawak pegi tempat pelupusan sampah. Omg.
Dalam purse tu ada cash RM100+ i don't really remember, tapi mmg tak berani nak bagitau parents lah. Gila kau buang duit? Buang tabiat betul. Kaya betol kami ye sampai nak buang duit. Huhu. Ada ic kami, kad pelajar, kad bank, kad watson and macam2 lagi.
I was speechless. Seriously, ni mmg pengajaran bagi kitorang. Lps ni tak mungkin lah kitorang careless psl handbag or purse kan? Harap tak lah. So the next step kitorang buat ialah buat report. Then bayar denda. Kesian ayah melayang duit. Sorang bayar denda RM110 sbb first time hilang. Second time harga lain ye. So saya kene sgt careful. Simpan ic elok2 hahaha. Buat ic baru ambik masa 1 jam shj sbb takde ramai org sgt masa tu. Alhamdullilah cpt sikit balik. At the same time call bank cancel card. 1 day hura hara sikit. Mak pulak bebel non stop, ayah relax je even kene keluar duit.
Malam tu sebelum tidur saya fikir, ada ke dalam dunia ni org terbuang beg, org lain kene ragut adalah. Hahaha. I know my sister memang careless sbb dia cermin mata letak mana tak ingat sampai buat baru, fon dia selalu lupa letak mana. Mmg careless hahaha. Harap lps kejadian tu dia lebih careful hihi. Sekian, bye.
Labels: bayaran ic hilang, ic hilang, purse hilang, terbuang purse
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Let it go
Monday, 20 May 2019 at 01:42
Assalamualaikum
How to let go someone out of our mind and heart. I'm so confused seeked for help from online society, many gave me a lot of different ideas and advice which I would like to share here.
As you are in crush on someone and can't get it out of you system? They said time. That's it. Only time can help you. There is no on or off switch, time is the one and only option. It will fade away soon.
I don't know how long it going to take for you as for me, I haven't really moved on.
However, if a lot time passes and you are still feeling it, then you have a to look it back carefully.
Feelings are only less of what it make works. The rest depends on how well each other person deal with their own feelings and emotion. It is also mainly about the level of emotional maturity.
How do you move on? Understand that your feelings for them has become a habit, an addiction, in fact now you feel the withdrawal symptom. We want to do anything we could to end them and may feel so desperate about it.
Instead try to stay busy, but we have to feel relaxed, listen to some of your fav movie. Yes the more relaxed we are, the less we hurt, whether it is emotional or physical.
Understand that they are your habit and that cannot stop thoughts from rising up. You can control whether or not you dwell on them. When you start think about them, you say firmly I do that anymore and turn your attention somewhere else. You must create a new habit so you won't think about them.
As for feelings, the more we think someone else will permanently make us happy, the more miserable we are going to be. So even it feels impossible to tear them out, the key is distancing yourself from that person slowly. Suddenly cutting them off will only hurt you more or hurt the other person. Text them once in a while don't completely ghost them up. Try to have girls days out. Over time the feelings will fade away more and more before you know it, you are over them! Again it won't happen overnight, but you will be there. Hang in there thight!
I think actually I'm not qualified enough to share this here because i haven't really succeeded in this, hopefully soon.
RAYA 2019
Friday, 17 May 2019 at 01:12
Assalamualaikum & hi
Today is officially 12 ramadhan which means we all can already feel the Raya vibes. It's quite a bit earlier right?
I don't know lah if you guys haven't feel the raya vibes yet (because maybe you're a student with exam stress and all). But for me, as I'm in a business industry, i guess? I totally in it! Raya!! We already got a lot of hampers & kuih raya from the companies & also my father's shop started selling variety types of kuih raya today (and there is a lot guys, i want to eat it alllll)
So, when because we are already in the raya vibes, i decided to make a lot of kuih raya this year. But i don't know if i will have enough time or not becase this year I'm hella busy with 2 shops. Plus, i want to khatam al Quran really soon. I have a lot of work but still i want to make kuih raya on my own. Baru betul betul raya kan? 😂 For me, I think Raya is not complete without homemade kuih raya!!! Here is my list of kuih raya i will be doing this year, later i will update whether i did manage to do it all or nah? And also i want to save my recepi here.
1. Butter cookies
2. Almond london
3. Semperit dahlia
4. Semperit
5. Cornfalkes
Being in love as a Muslim
Friday, 10 May 2019 at 01:41
Assalamualaikum
Love feelings with the intention of marrying them and love without the intention of marrying is two different thing, totally. In my opinion, it is all about how you handle it, I'm saying this again firstly when we found someone we should make sure he or she is the one and with the intention of marrying them in mind we should consult our parents before it is too late. You are going to regret when you miss the timing.
But your problem is about conservative parents who fear what you do as a child right?
Islamic verses in Quran prohibit dating but that doesn't say boy s can't befriend with girls, even they are parents or scholars out there forbids this strictly. But if we use our common sense in this, how can we not talk to someone opposite gender in this world. Muslim females and males do and can talk to each other and get to know each other well. If this is not happening how in the world we are supposed to marry them in the first place. But sadly I guess my parents are in the group that doesn't agree with this statement.
As a muslim, love should step into marriage. Some muslims believe in arranged marriage, but guess what that is actually beyond Quran. The Quran itself says the people choose who to marry. The parent can have input but custom, but forcing someone to love and marry a particular person is islamically wrong.
I can totally understand the fear you have to tell your parents about the situation you're in. You might have strict parents as mine. Even nowadays it is so common in this world about being in a relationship. If your parents are easy going you're on the lucky side because they might permit you too see or talk to the boy but with advice and condition for sure. I'm happy for you if you have that kind of parents!! How I wish too haha.
You know how your parents are. If you are afraid of them, it is a shame. But you still want to be with that guy, you have no choice, you still have to tell them. It is worst if they find out by themself which it would surely going to make some scene. Consider yourself carefully and be sure that you actually love the boy with the intention of getting married. It is highly likely your parents will want this and to know the boy is a good kind hearted, wants to be a responsible to you.
But is is also possible for you to get punished, as often what I know from my culture, our parents are strict and hold old tradition views. Before telling your parents, maybe you should seek out help from an islamic society's view.
Control feelings?
Monday, 4 March 2019 at 22:48
Assalamualaikum
Is it okay to fall in love? I wonder it too.
Feelings are not something that we can control, but we can control our actions :)
You will always have someone that you love, because it's your heart and your mind that choose a person based on their looks, action, words and behavior.
But relationship between boys and girls are not acceptable before marriage. Some might say who says dating isn't an option? But that isn't the rule of Allah. Of course it is impossible to not to talk with them, it is normal to talk because we all live together on this planet, but remember physical contact is to be avoided.
Talking to parents is important which I haven't do so because my parents are super duper strict. If you're in a really good open relationship with your parents talk to them first. We can also go out with them, but make sure get a group of friends together to go with you. It doesn't have to be one on one. Don't give yourselves the option of committing zina. If you have good intentions remain strong. There is no harm in falling in love.
But, we have to remember that we will meet a lot of people, we will have different feelings, we will experience a lot of relationships. My advice is, live your life normally but remember that you value a lot, not any one can hear your sweet words, not any one can see your attractive features, not any one can touch you, be precious.
It can only be that person you chose yourself, the one that will love you dearly, the one that is willing to do anything for you, the one you chose as your husband. It's a great deal. think about it carefully. And know more about your religion.
Relationship like this usually have a mysterious ending or it will never end. That is why we take marriage seriously. We pray and ask Allah if it was a good decision. We observe our partners and see if we will be good together.
Majlis Khatan Adik
Monday, 25 February 2019 at 00:32
Assalamualaikum & hai,
Dalam family saya, kitorang akan sambut majlis khatan ni agak special sikit. Sampai kadang-kadang orang terkejut tengok cara kitorang sambut. Hahaha. Kitorang orang mamak (indian muslim) memang macam ni yee. So adik saya tiga tiga laki. Dua orang Khatan masa saya form 1 tak silap so cam tak ingat sangat. Tapi diorang pun ada pelamin, jemput 500 org makan and etc. But sekarang, adik bongsu saya yg teramat manja ni... MashaAllah.. Pening kepala seh. My dad terlalu manjakan dia so majlis pun dah ala ala majlis kahwin sudahh.
At first, kitorang (ayh, mak, pakcik, makcik, saudara mara, sepupu sepapat) semuanya dah meeting untuk kali pertama sebulan lebih awal untuk majlis ni. HAHAHA. Asalnya, bercadang nak jemput 200 org SAHAJA, then pak cik saya kat KL suruh jemput je semua puak puak kami dari Pulau pinang, Ipoh, Taiping, KL & etc. Saudara mara saya memang ramai. Infiniti orang. Siapa kenal saya taulah ramai tu level bape. Hahaha. So listnya jadilah 400 orang. Tak kisahlah, dapatlah kitorang eratkan lagi silaturahim dengan saudara mara kan (even sebenarnya tak tau nak panggil diorang apa, tak kenal tapi saudara, diorang pun tak kenal saya, saya pun tak kenal diorang).
Kitorang bincang atur cara majlis, ceh wahhh memang dah macam kerja kahwin.
2pm - Yasin, doa selamat & tazkirah.
3pm - Berarak bersama 120 adik adik tahfiz sambil berselawat
4pm- Makan makan sambil menghayati qasidah dari kumpulan Qasidah Nur Muhibbin, Ustaz Sharil
Adik sampai depan rumah je, ada kawan ayah buat silat selamat datang & bila adik masuk duduk atas pelamin je mula qasidah. Masa yang sama tetamu dah start makan. Bayangkanlah ayah jemput dekat 400 orang dan yang datang 800 orang. HAHAHA. HURU HARA WEYYY. Sebab pinggan makan ada 500 je. Then suddenly tak cukup, plastik sampah tak cukup, air pun sama. So lari pergi bukak kedai, nasib baik kedai dekat dengan rumah. Naib baik nasi cukup & ada lebih, syukur sangat sangat. Sebab adik adik tahfiz ramai sangat, kesian diorang kalau tak dapat. Yelah, kita jemput orang kan, kalau tak dapat bagi semua makan, malu kot.
Alhamdulillah settle semua. Majlis berjalan macam biasa. Sebelum adik mula berarak, ada tazkirah ringkas dari Ustaz Shariful Anam. Saya pun tak sempat dengar kat rumah, tapi ada orang ambik video. Best ceramah dia.
Yang palinggggg saya rasa sedih tu pasal makanan!! Makanan ada banyakkkk jenis & banyak sangat but sepanjang majlis tu saya tak dapat makan apa apa. Last last kitorang gi mcd je. Lols. Ada satee, rojak, roti jala, briyani, ayam masak merah, daging masak apa tak tahu (tak sempat tengok pun), ketupat, rendang, buah anggur, buah delima, kuih ada 4 jenis, brownies ada 2 jenis. Dalam list atas tu satu pun saya tak dapat. Hahahah sedih beb. Sebab asalnya saya siap tangguh tarikh nak cabut gigi sebab nak menikmati makanan makanan yang ada masa majlis. Hampeh.
Saudara mara ramai, kawan kawan pun ramai, Alhamdullilah, majlis berjalan lancar. Petang tu, kitorang sambut birthday anak saudara, Al Khattab turns 2!! Petang tu pun dah agak hura hara sikit, so tak sempat nak bergambar nak hias apa apa, even dah siap beli perhiasan nak hias tempat masa nak potong kek tu. Tak kesampaian, masa tu pulak ada keluarga kawan saya datang. Humairah sekeluarga datang. Lama sangat tak jumpe dia, sempat jugak lah catch up sikit dengan dia. Mak Syafiqa & Adawiyah ada datang, Alhamdulillah dapat layan dengan baik, siap berarak sama sama sambil selawat. Petang tu Ain & ayah dia pun ada datang, serious tak sempat nak layan dia. Rasa bersalah gila, bayangkan dia datang saya tak dapat layan sangat, tapi esoknya abang dia kawin, saya, & saudara saya semua pergi majlis kahwin abang dia lambat. Pergi pulak masa meja semua dah siap kemas. Sebab kat rumah saudara mara ramai belum balik, kene masak & layan tetamu. Tapi ayah Ain siap pasang balik meja & hidang makan untuk kitorang. Siap dapat kek pulak. Malu seh, yalah, diorang datang berdua je pun kita tak sempat layan. Ain..oh Ain. Sayang awak Ain.
Biasanya kan kalau majlis apa apa kat rumah yang girls, tolong dalam rumah kan? But masa majlis haritu, oleh sebab ayah dah jemput ramaiiii sangat orang, sampai saya pun terpaksa turun padang. Hahaha. Tanpa segan silu layan tetamu yang tak kenal pun, macamlah saya peramah sangat. Siap mengarah orang buat kerja lagi, amek kausss!! Malam before majlis, kitorang, saudara mara je, buat tahlil bacaan yasin untuk semua arwah arwah dalam family kitorang, list panjang, termasuk nama nenek moyang. Kitorang baca yasin pukul 12.30 tengah malam. Tak pernah dibuat orang. Hahahaha, kitorang masing-masing tutup kedai dulu. Lepas yasin kitorang makan sama sama tengah malam buta tu kat khemah luar rumah tu. Sweet memories.
Nak cerita pasal kos pulak, manalah tau ada yang nak buat majlis macam ni kan? Btw, lupa nak cakap masak semua dekat rumah, tak ambik catering pun, ayah yang masak. Jimat duit & besttt!!! Sebab dapat rewang sama sama.
Pelamin - RM580
Khemah - RM900
Qasidah - RM300
Sewa buffet - Ada orang sponsor
Ustaz - Seikhlas hati korang
Homestay - RM300 (Ada saudara stay)
Bas untuk adik adik tahfiz - RM200
Baju - RM500 ( Set baju melayu 4 orang, samping & tanjak)
Barang masak - ambik kat kedai sendiri, so tak kira kos ^^
Satee - RM910
Alaaa, memang list tak habis. Banyak keluar duit. Belum majlis kawin guys, baru majlis khatan. Sekali sekala tak pelah, bukannya ada pembaziran pun. Masa balik kan tetamu bagi duit masa salam kan, duit salam kaut. Ramai orang bagi dekat saya, sebab mak & ayah terlalu sibuk, kakak pulak sibuk kat dalam. Lepas 5 hari baru teringat pasal duit tu, hahaha. Nasib baik ingat.
Best tau buat majlis macam ni, meriah, dapat eratkan silaturahim, bila je dapat kumpul rqamai ramai macam ni. Penat tu memang penat. Lepas majlis, kitorang semua terus tak sihat, demam, muntah-muntah, cirit birit. Semua geng kitorang yang turun padang je. Yang dari Ipoh, KL. Kesian my sis & anak anak dia. Dahlah penat travel, lepastu baby dua dua tak sihat, dengan dia pun sama. Tak boleh lupa. Sama sama semua sakit. Ada yang kata kene buatan orang lah apalah. Sampai kitorang semua masuk rumah je macam tak sihat. Tapi Alhamdullilah, lepas 3 hari semua dah sihat. Takde bende rasenya, semua lepak buat kerja kot.
Korang boleh check kat link yang saya bagi ni, kalau nak tengok majlis yang saya cerita ni macam mana.
Qasidah - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfCmyeTEbwA
Ceramah & Majlis - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50Kky7JDXrI
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| Korang boleh dengar ceramah dia kat link saya bagi kat atas. |
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| My cute brother |
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Lastly, Me & selfie. Haha XD
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Finally, saya update entry ni selepas sekian lama saya simpan sebagai draft. Bye, Assalmualaikum.
A lot of things happened recently
Wednesday, 13 February 2019 at 21:49
Assalamualaikum & hi
I miss sharing everything here so much as recently my schedule are packed so i don't have enough time to share my story here.
But let me summaries it to share it to you guys & as my own memory too, i don't want to forget all the things happened tho, in future i can get my memories back here, i guess?
There are a lot of things i want to share, really don't know where to start. Should i start from the bad thing or good thing?
Past few weeks, my grandma's brother, which i call "appa" (grandpa) came to Malaysia, all the way from India, to settle down here. He had been thrown away by his daughter because of money issue. Then, he came to Malaysia as he thought he can stay at his sister's children house which is my mom's siblings at Pulau Pinang. But he didn't knew, everyone was struggling, everyone have their own problems going on, they can't even feed themselves enough, cause busy, no time & many more. My uncle lost his son (my cousin, same age) & still struggling tho, plus, he was busy with his daughter marriage. I don't know who i should pity, grandpa? Uncle? Aunt? My dad? Mom? Myself? Next, if he want to stay at my aunt's house (even she was welcoming) my aunt herself was struggling at maximum as she was not in good health condition. As my family, we had our issues going on at that moment to. As a conclusion i can say that no one did really volunteer to took care of him.
My father helped him to took care of his visa, found a work & place to stay. Even i knew my father really wanted to help him as he can, but i also knew that my grandpa is not in a good enough condition to work, he CAN'T work. He can't hear well, how can he work? Once he was a famous cook at his place but now..
After the wedding, he came to my place, he wanted to stay with us for a while. He really loves us. The day he came, my parents went to Penang. The next day he shared all his problem with me & my mother. He told us he was mentally hurt. He talked non stop about his worries. But i think he only shared 20% of his worries. He don't want us to feel bad for him. The next day he kept on asking me for a drive, he said he really wanted to go for a ride with me. But i was busy at that time. I regret. I promised him i will take him for a ride tomorrow. Now i remember few months ago he called me from India & asked me if i have a licence so that when he come to Malaysia i can take him out
Wednesday, at around 8pm my sister called me and asked me to come asap to my father shop. I was shocked as i can hear crying sound at the background. I really can't forgot how i was driving back then, i was shivering, i was scared. I managed to go tho.
My sister told me, my grandpa involved in an accident, a super bike hit him. He was walking back from mosque after magrib prayer. It was just in front of my father's shop, and my brothers all was there, when the accident happened. They were shocked. The bike was super speed so when the accident happened both of them....
The night after the accident, we went to hospital, he was still in the yellow zone. Is it because he was old? He was in a yellow zone even he was so critical. And the super bike guy was in red zone. Even he was not that critical. My grandpa's both arm & leg & eyes & nose and his head was seriously injured.
The next day he was sent to XXX Hospital & all the things they cared about was only money. Only because he was a foreigner so the cost is higher there and the doc was only talking about the cost not how's my grandpa condition. They (doctors) didn't want to touch his head, they wanted us to pay for minor things like leg, arm, nose & eyes. Because they knew if they touch my grandpa head, he can't survive. He is 73 yo. He was really at his maximum & all they cared about was money. The total cost their were talking was about 40 to 50k.
At thursday, 1.55pm he was gone. He can't take it anymore. But he was smiling at the moment. His smile was the sweetest smile ever. We can't even cry when we saw his smiling face. It was hard to believe at the first. But he was called by Allah on the way his was walking back from prayers. MashaAllah.
I really can't go in detail about this. Bye, Assalamualaikum.
A conversation
Wednesday, 2 January 2019 at 18:44
Assalamualaikum
Her: I've noticed you've been praying more, why? Him: I pray your name is written next to mine.
Her: But still, what do you see in me? Him: I see you with my heart not with my eyes.
Her: Do you dream about me? Him: It wasn't dream to be with you, It was a prayer.
Her: What if we ended even before we started? Him: You are the only story that I never want to end.
Her: I don't get how you express your love for me with this distance? Him: You might be wanted me to express my love in words but I mention you in my prayers.
Her: What is your love language? Him: I prayed for you.
Her: How much do you love me? Him: I'm ready to take all of your troubles and sadness away, I want to fill you with heart filled with joy.
Her: Do you really mention my name in your prayers? Him: Forever & always.
Her: But why? Him: Pray secretly for those who you love, love is a prayer.
Her: But why me? There are many other pretty girls out there? Him: My desire is to see you in Jannah and that is my love for you. I want to hold your hand in Jannah.
May Allah bless us.
Tooth extraction for braces
Wednesday, 26 December 2018 at 01:26
Assalamualaikum & hi,
Today i would like to share about my experience of removing my tooth for the first time ever & i got 2 of my tooth removed at the same time. Brave enough huh? So, before i went to my ortho dental appointment, i didn't knew 2 of my tooth will be removed soon! I didn't mentally & physically prepared for it. I thought i would get my braces tighten and yeah, so i cleaned my teeth at house and went to the dental clinic as usual.
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| So true, i would be so lazy for the whole month & brush my teeth extra long on the day i have appointment. |
When the doctor checked my teeth, he asked me if i want to get my tooth removed today & i was like why not. The doctor, started his work, hi gave me an injection of anesthesia, so i didn't felt anything during the process of tooth extraction. He gave me more than 4 injection guys!! But it is not that painful, so don't worry. It will feel like you got bitten by ants. Believe me, but yes it is not painful when he gave an injection at your gum or lips, but it really painful when he inject me at the palate. Auchhh!! Hell no man. He injected me twice there while saying "sorry Sakinah, it will hurt".
Then i don't know what he did, but then a dental assistant came and held my head. I was blur, like what's going on, why are you holding my head?? At that moment the doctor pulled of my tooth. Seriously, i didn't felt anything other then confused why my head being held. The doctor did everything perfectly. But there was blood everywhere.
That was a lot of blood. What a waste, my blood!! The blood didn't stop when i was waiting outside, i went to toilet for a few times to clean up and wipe my bloods. Then the doctor called me and he changed my cotton and he dipped the cotton in hot water to help me to stop the blood. That's it, it wasn't thattt scary. The pain after?? I had none, i didn't feel anything till now, it's the day 2 after tooth extraction. I'm taking the medicine the doctor give me correctly. So if you guys, just had your teeth removed, make sure you take your medicine properly so you won't feel any pain like me. That's all, & yeah maybe i will got more tooth removed in my next appointment, maybe, i'm not sure. As for the next entry i would like to share about my experience in doing RCT Okayy, Bye.
** Will update abt RCT later ^^
Patience
at 00:29
Assalamualaikum!!
I said; "I will wait for halal, halal is better.." Someone said; "I will ask Allah for you twice, once in this world and once in Jannah..."
Ya Allah. make the outcome worth the wait,
Patience is the key,
I'm doing this for the sake of my parents & Allah,
Crush or love
Thursday, 20 December 2018 at 00:55
Assalamualaikum
Crushes are completely natural. It is just how we deal with them is important. Crushes are just that. A short term attraction to opposite gender which might get over time or might be we actually fall for them real hard?
Technically, in Islam, we are not allowed to mingle with the opposite gender. We also don't go date, But we can totally talk to someone of the opposite gender with respect, it would be unwise to emotionally get attached to someone you're not planning to get married which I see is quite common nowadays.
Love is of course a very difficult feeling to explain as I'm not an expert in it. For me love is about those moments, which fill warmth in the heart.
Some really confused with love and crush. If it isn't love it could be a simple attraction or a liking. Or it could be emptiness, loneliness which that feelings isn't real but more of a distraction. And it could be a "love" for an image created in one's mind, a far better version of the actual person. If you're in a state of denial which i think it is worst because you could hurt yourself in the process and possibly the other person too. Nothing is better than being truly mindful and aware of our emotions and feelings. Accepting our thoughts and sitting with them, not be afraid of them, not judging them. Just listen closely and being honest with ourselves. A thing that matters a lot and avoids heartache and pain.
Crush isn't considered love, it is not a genuine feelings, it is a warning. Or you are wondering what feelings you have for someone and that could be you think of them as friend, but are around them them so much you can't place your feelings, or something along these lines. Or you are wondering what is another word for love, but it doesn't have strong connections which could mean that you like them, or they like you, which isn't a crush, and it is not true love, but rather something in between. It is defined differently between people.
First time doing henna design.
Tuesday, 4 December 2018 at 02:44
Assalamualaikum & hi,
I'm feeling proud of myself right now. Me myself who don't even can draw a straight line properly, finally did my henna on my own. Lol. As i told in my previous post, i have been jealous of people who are talented in doing henna design. Huhuhu.
For the first attempt, i think my design can be accepted tho. Before i do my henna, i tried it on paper for a thousand times and at last i fed up with myself because it turn out bad. But then, my mom said just give it a try. Tadaaa
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| My first try on paper |
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| This henna, my mom bought for me from Mekah. |
Okayy guys bye!! Wait for my next entry, i will share about my brother's Khantan Ceremony.
My problems with braces!!
Monday, 26 November 2018 at 00:47
Assalamualaikum,
Hi, after more than 1 month i wore braces. Many things changed in my life for sure. But...there are are a lot of things i wished i knew before i wore braces. My sister & my friends who also wear braces told me that it's a common problem. But stillll... i'm not used to it.
1. Say no for chewy caramel!!
As for me it is really hard to not take any sweets because my father owns a shop, and i'm taking care of it a lot now. Since i'm at cashier for at least 9 hour a day, i just can't stop myself from eating chewy sweets. But then, it will stick at my braces & have to clean my teeth again and again. So, eating chewy caramel is a nightmare now. Hope i will get used to it soon.
2. Dry lips
This one is so so bad for me as my lips is already 24/7 dry. Even before i this my lips will literally bleed because it's to dry. And now, i don't even want to say how bad is my lips condition is!! Vaseline is helpful tho.
3. No more big bite of burger!!
Don't want to talk about this. Huh, i can't even take a bite of an apple, why bother about burger? *face palm*
4. I think i'm at the Dental clinic all the time.
I spend my time a lot there. Seriously, my new bestie are people from the dental clinic i got my braces.
5. My brackets keep on popping off!!
I hate this, well every single person who wearing braces hate this situation, i guess? I have to go back to my orthodontist, once again, and get it fixed. Plus, every single time it's broken the duration i have to wear braces will be longer.
6. The struggle to answer people question.
It's only been one month and i got sick of the same question every single day. ( how i feel, is it painful or not, cost, where i got my braces and bla bla bla) Sick of it!! I can accept it when the person who ask is my family members or friend, but when a strangers started to ask i feel likee..."ugh, stop it". And when when that friend with perfect teeth goes like " I want to wear braces badly". Then, i have to be like "you don't do that, definitely don't"
7. Food get stuck everywhere.
They are a lot of food are forbidden when you're braces. One of it is popcorn. I love popcorn and i can't handle this!! Sometimes, i just ignore the problem i have to face and eat it. What i do even it's disgusting, every time i had done my meal. I will drink some water to clean the food that stuck & swallow it. I'm sorry, i do that.
8. THE RUBBER BAND
It's supper duper uncomfortable when i wear it plus i can't talk or even eat properly. I rarely wear it. Then when i go to the dental clinic, the doctor will be "Please wear rubber band, or else you have to wear braces longer, bla bla bla"
9. A lot of mouth ulcers!
It's depends on how's you're teeth condition is. My friend always got ulcer, i rarely got. But to avoid this, you can put some wax on the wire at the end & bracket.
10. The pain when you just tightened your braces.
It's a torture because of the pressure the teeth need to handle is just too much, but it is only for a few days. I can endure it well, and surely you guys will too!!
Road to 2 month with braces and my journey is still long to go!
I don't understand why the doctor can understand me very well. Lol
No time!
Tuesday, 20 November 2018 at 01:30
Assalamualaikum,
Recently I'm so busy, so i have no time to update anything here. Currently I'm editing video of my brothers "Khatan ceremony". The video was taken 7 years ago but nobody edited, the video have about 50 separate part!!. I'm going crazy to edit it, cause i have to cut,mute,spit, add animation, add music to this video. At first it was not easy at all but i'm doing okay now. I'm using Open Shot video editor. This one helps me a lot, because it is free and no watermark after we finish and download our project. Now, i'm going to continue to edit the video. I have 1 week to finish this video, so that we can watch this video with our relatives next week as they are all coming for my small brother "Khatan ceremony"
Bye!!
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| This is how it's look like, i'm half done :) |
My favourite Indian sweets
Saturday, 17 November 2018 at 00:54
Assalamualaikum,
Yesterday i went shopping with my family for my brother upcoming ceremony? Majlis berkhatan. We went to Jakel, Kamdar, Angsana, Gayatri and etc but on the way back, we saw a INDIAN SWEET SHOP. It's my first time seeing it here, the shop is near to city square, behind Amma Restaurant. It's called JJ Sweet. I thought there was no Indian sweet shop in Jb, this is the first shop they opened here & they just opened 3 month ago.
In Malaysia, we rarely see a shop that literally sell only sweets, cs normally they will sell sweets at indian restaurant so there are less choice. Usually i won't get what i wanted there.
The uncle and aunty at that shop was really kind, they gave us a lot of freebies. We tasted a lot of sweets there for free. It was really nice. Last week i went to 7 spicy at Danga Bay and i tried Gulab Jamun for the first time, it was hella sweet and surely not my taste. But then at that shop they gave us gulab jamun to try and it was different, it was not thhhaat sweet as i ate before.
Actually my family rarely eat indian sweets. We only eat when we or anybody of our relatives goes to India & they will bring back sweets as souvenir. It's very unhealthy because it is full of sugar and yet we can't resist it taste lol.
If the sweets names are wrong please help me by commenting the real one cause i just name as how i pronounce it.
1. Palkova
This one is google image, palkova usually look like this but there is another one and im not sure if taht is also palkova or not.
This one also palkova, it can be in any shape. I bought this at that shop i mentioned earlier. This one taste soooo good. My favourite ever!!!
2. Kesari
Kesari is my fav too. Omg i crav for it always & i love kesari that my mom do. Especially rava kesari wowww. I think this is the easiest sweet that can be prepared. You can buy the ready made one, just add ghee and water and cook, i guess? I always see my mom do that before. But now she can do it herself, no need ready made one, more delicious of course! From what i see, she use rava flour ( tepung suji), ghee (minyak sapi), badam & raisin. And she roast the rava flour in ghee, sugar, water and bla bla bla. But i think the ratio of water, flour & sugar is important. I think i can make my own kesari. Lol.
This picture i took at 7 Spice ( Danga Bay), verrry verry nice. I love ittt. I will go again just to eat kesari, milkshake and chicken tikka masala. Im craving!! But if you guys go the better i remind you first, the food there is awesome same goes to the price. Sometimes for only 4 people it can cost RM600. It depends on what you eat. Last week, me, my sis & my father we ate there and cost us RM300 ( we tapau Chetinatu crab ). The crab was RM120. So it was okay for what we ate.
3. Jelebi
It not my top fav, but i can eat one. It's my bro fav sweet. Jelebi is his life. The picture below is from google image, yesterday we bought jelebi but he ate it faster. I think he got scared if i ask for it.
4. Gulab Jamun
Also not my fav, but it was really nice. This one i ate at 7 Spice, RM10.
5. Soan papdi
I cryyyy. This is my favourite. Me and my sister always call it paper sweet, cause you know when you eat it you can slice it like paper. What am i saying? Hahaha. I rarely got to eat this. This one taste better in India.
There is more but i don't really know their names. So maybe i will update it later. The pic below is the shop i mentioned. Trust me, they make good sweets.
*UPDATED*
Finnaly i got sweet from india!! My uncle went there, and i get to eat soan papdi!!
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| soan papdi |
I just write what i feel 👀
Friday, 16 November 2018 at 06:35
Assalamualaikum!!
I don't think i could ever feel like this, The way you treat, I know i don't deserve this, Actually i want this feeling to stop growing, It's dangerous for people like me, I don't want to give a fake hope neither want you to wait for me.
The end
at 06:23
Assalamualaikum
The end, life of Matriculation ended peacefully. I had so much fun and learnt so many new things in life, which makes my eyes wide open and see how the actual world look like. This 1 year was my first time ever leaving my family and staying at dormitory. At first i had so much hard time to deal with my homesickness, i kept on calling my parents 24/7 and cry. My dad would come if i cry so bad, he literally came twice a week to see me. Guess what the first few months there, i would go back every single week and every single holiday i get even it is for one day.
I'm so thankful because i meet a lot of great peoples there that left positive impact in my life. My classmates, roommates, lecturers and even the caffe staff, just everyone there was so kind, sporting and understanding. I overcame my homesick feeling with their advices. I became so close with my classmates & roommate. We spend 24/7 of our together. We study, gossip, pray, eat, outing, and a lot more activities together.
There are too many sweet memories i have in my mind right now, there are too many and i could never list it out but there was a lot of hard, bitter memories too. I glad i had so much fun there because i kind of regretted a lot the fact i didn't have so much "fun" memories in my high school because we were busy studying and i was kind of in control of my parents. But this doesn't mean i did something bad behind my parents back, it is just i had fun, my parents are strict, they are kind of allergic to "fun", just joking.
I balanced well both in studying and having fun, my results in matriculation was not bad, Alhamdulilah, thanks to my hard work and my classmates, roommates & lecturer too for all the knowledge they shared to me.
InshaALLAH, let see what Allah plans for me in future. I'm eagerly waiting to have so much fun in my next destination :)
Resepi Butter Cookies!! 🍪 ( tanpa telur)
Thursday, 15 November 2018 at 00:17
Assalamualaikum & hye. Entry kalini nak share resepi butter cookies yg saya selalu buat sbb my family suka sangat sangat. If buat 1 balang penuh satu malam je dah habis hahaha. Resepi ni terlalu mudah sesiapa pun boleh buat dengan senang.
Bahan-bahannya:
250gm butter ( 1 buku )
90gm gula icing
280gm tepung gandum
1/2 sudu kecil baking powder
2 sudu kecil esen vanilla
Step by step :
1. Putar butter, gula icing sampai putih.
2. Masa putar tu, masukkan tepung gandum, esen vanila dan baking powder sedikit demi sedikit.
3. Kemudian, masukkan adunan itu dalam peti ais selama 20 minit.
4. Bentukkan adunan ikut suka korang, letaklah chocolate chop, badam or apa apa je.
5. Bakar suhu 160 selama 12 minit.
Doh untuk cookies ni agak mebik ye, susah sikit nak buat bentuk, so kepal2 je. Hehehe. And sebenarnya resepi ni saya dapat dari satu blogger jugak, cuma saya tak ingat nama blog dia bagi kredit. Even saya ubah but still it's hee my own recepi. Sekian, bye.
Saya lupa nak cakap terima kasih kpd sesiapa yg mengunjungi blog saya, sebab past few days saya tengok overview stat blog ni ada jugak yang membaca, lol. Saya buat sekadar suka suka sbb saya bosan jaga kaunter kt kedai. Tq again.
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| Gambar 2014 |
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| Raya 2018 |
Labels: butter cookies, resepi
Deep secret
Wednesday, 14 November 2018 at 21:07
Assalamualaikum,
I have a deep secret that i won't ever share to anybody. It happened when i was 5 or 6 yo i guess. Yes, it was when i was a little innocent kid that don't even know what is right and wrong. Now I'm 19 and until now im keeping it as my top secret. Hmm, seriously i didn't know who i should share it with at that time, and i guess my mom knows it? I guess... But she didn't ask anything so maybe she just ignored it thinking that it was nothing or it was just a small matter. But it really impacted me so much as i thought of going to caunseling. But i didn't go. I don't know if people can understand what i feel. Like now also, it's not like im going to share the secret here. I'm just telling you guys what i feel because of the secret. People around me see me as a cheerful & talkative person but deep inside me there is something torturing me a little, thank god it's not torturing me now because i think i feel better after i read a story similar to my secret, and the person asked others thought of his/her story, and others said it was not his/her fault, and saying that it was nothing & don't worry. It calmed me, Alhamdullilah. When i think back, it was really not my fault. I hope i will keep on being positive abt this in future too. 🌸🌸 The reason why i didn't share it to anyone is because i have no idea if my memory deceives me or not which if i tell anyone i will be a liar, and i don't want to. Maybe it was a dream or nightmare and I hope so it was.
🌸🌸 Whoever reading this and you know me, don't ask me abt this, cause i don't like to talk abt this. But don't worry it's not like my secret is reaaaallly bad like i have been a thief,kidnapped, molested, or anything bad than that. Seriously don't worry. Anndd sorry if my english was bad. Thanks for reading, bye.
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Ada apa dalam syurga?
Tuesday, 13 November 2018 at 22:41
Assalamualaikum & hi. Harini saya nak kongsi something yang saya dapat dari satu ceramah yg saya dgr. So bila saya share kt sini saya sendiri dpt ingat balik point2 penting dia.
Bagi saya lah, bila saya dengar ceramah pasal syurga saya akan bersungguh sungguh nak beribadah. Saya try hard nak bangun malam nak tahajud, solat sunat semua. Sebab apa, sebab tau semua tu ada ganjaran yg hebat nanti. Benda wajib memang kita semua buat. Tapi bende sunat ni mmg payah sikit kan. Kalau yg dah start buat tu harap kita sama sama istiqamah.
Kalau saya dengar or baca anything abt neraka. Kekadang sampai menangis sbb takut. Takut sangat dengan azab azab Allah dkt neraka. Kecut habis. Zaman skrg susah nak elakkan diri dari buat dosa. Ada je dosa yg kita buat. Mengumpat orang ke tak tutup aurat dgn sempurna ke. Ade jelah. Semoga kita semua terus istiqamah untuk jauhkan diri dari larangan Allah.
Korang tau tak syurga ada 100 tingkat setiap tingkat jarak dia mcm langit dengan bumi. MashaAllah.
Apa ada dalam syurga?
1. Bidadari
Bidadari ni bukan manusia mahupun malaikat. Allah perintahkan mereka jadi. Maka.. Jadilah mereka. Bidadari tidak dilahirkan, tidak beranak & tidak mempunyai keturunan. Rasulullah pernah bersabda " Jika salah seorang bidadari turun ke bumi dari syura, bumi akan terang benderang tanpa matahari & berbau harum " Bidadari ni mmg secantik cantik kejadian. Tau tak, isteri tak akan ada perasaan cemburu bila suaminya didampingi bidadari. Wow. Dan suami pun takkan cemburu bila isteri dia ditemani pemuda tampan. Setiap penghuni syurga ditemani at least dua bidadari & org yg mati syahid akan ditemani 72 bidadari. Lagi kelebihan org yg mati syahid, dia boleh tarik 70 orang ahli keluarganya yg ada masuk neraka ke dalam syurga. Allahuakhbar. Allah menciptakan bidadari ini supaya manusia ada sifat tamak untuk beramal ibadah dan untuk dapatkan ganjaran kelak.
2. Makan & minum disyurga.
Manusia tidak akan berasa haus atau lapar dalam syurga. Ini kerana sebelum masuk alam syurga manusia minum air dari telaga haud. Cukup minum seteguk air manusia takkan rasa haus selamanya. Manusia makan dan minum di syurga bukan sebab lapar, tapi tu nikmat yg mereka dapat sbb berjaya elakkan diri dari makan or minum bende yg haram. Di syurga burung burung akan mengelilingi manusia lalu mengoda manusia agar manusia memilihnya untuk dimakan. Setiap burung tu akan dia bukak sayapnya yg berwarna warni & besar tu utk mempromosikan diri dia. Dia mahu dimakan oleh ahli syurga.
3. Music di syurga
Di syurga akan ada bidadari bidadari yg bersuara merdu utk manusia. Jika dia meludah, ludah dia boleh membuatkan manis 7 lautan. Macam tu sekali manis suara dia.
4. Pohon syurga
Rasullulaj pernah bersabda di syura ada pohon yg berjalan dibawah bayangan seseorang selama 100 tahun tanpa putus naungan. Pohon thuna, pohon yg tidak pernah kering dahannya, tidak pernah gugur daunnya, tidak pernah rosak buahnya, buahnya dekat, ada 70 000 dahan. Pohon berasal dari perak dan daunnya sutera.
5. Sungai sungai di syurga
Di syurga air sungai berupa susu, madu. Telaga Al Kautsar pulak, airnya lebih putih dari susu dan salju, manisnya lebih manis dari madu.
Ada lagi yang ustaz cakap tapi saya kurang pasti, point yg kt atas ni pun saya rujuk balik kt web jais. Banyak lagi keindahan syurga yg ada kt web jais korang boleh baca kt sini. Sekian, bye. Labels: nikmat syurga, syurga
Ops terbuang handbag 👜
at 05:52
Assalamualaikum and hai semua. Entry kali ni saya nak cerita pasal my precious purse. It happened 3 month ago.
Saya ni jenis tak tukar2 purse or handbag. If dah beli 1 saya akan guna sampai lah koyak rabak. Setakat ni purse ni tahun ni masuk purse ke 3. Purse yg 1st saya pakai paul smith wallet. Masa saya darjah 6. Blue in colour, even dah koyak saya still simpan sampai sekarang. Then saya guna purse cikai je beli kt pasar malam. Pakai 2,3 tahun and last last masuk tong sampah. Ergh.
Purse saya tu saya tumpang kat beg kakak saya and dia ter..... buang guys. Hope my kakak tk baca lah blog saya. Hahaha. Dalam beg tu ada kami punya purse kunci rumah dia, power bank and etc. 3 hari lps dah buang beg tu baru perasan beg dia hilang. Lol. So sampah dah letak luar and swm dah bawak pegi tempat pelupusan sampah. Omg.
Dalam purse tu ada cash RM100+ i don't really remember, tapi mmg tak berani nak bagitau parents lah. Gila kau buang duit? Buang tabiat betul. Kaya betol kami ye sampai nak buang duit. Huhu. Ada ic kami, kad pelajar, kad bank, kad watson and macam2 lagi.
I was speechless. Seriously, ni mmg pengajaran bagi kitorang. Lps ni tak mungkin lah kitorang careless psl handbag or purse kan? Harap tak lah. So the next step kitorang buat ialah buat report. Then bayar denda. Kesian ayah melayang duit. Sorang bayar denda RM110 sbb first time hilang. Second time harga lain ye. So saya kene sgt careful. Simpan ic elok2 hahaha. Buat ic baru ambik masa 1 jam shj sbb takde ramai org sgt masa tu. Alhamdullilah cpt sikit balik. At the same time call bank cancel card. 1 day hura hara sikit. Mak pulak bebel non stop, ayah relax je even kene keluar duit.
Malam tu sebelum tidur saya fikir, ada ke dalam dunia ni org terbuang beg, org lain kene ragut adalah. Hahaha. I know my sister memang careless sbb dia cermin mata letak mana tak ingat sampai buat baru, fon dia selalu lupa letak mana. Mmg careless hahaha. Harap lps kejadian tu dia lebih careful hihi. Sekian, bye.
Labels: bayaran ic hilang, ic hilang, purse hilang, terbuang purse
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