Assalamualaikum,

Storytime :)

A unromantic not so love story between two college students. It began when this girl was a new student, everything was strange to her, she was quiet and shy to talk to others, she was so lonely and had no idea what was going on as they are students who just finished high school, everything was new to them, the college system and stuff. But, this one guy helped her to get comfortable from the day one, he helped her in everything, he arranged everything for her. Both of them become best friends since that day. 

Little did she know, the guy was already have feelings for her, the guy started to become clingy, sweet, protective towards her. Days to months, both of them became inseparable, they studied & scored top together, attended a lot of programs together, countless time doing assignments, projects and stuffs like that together. All was just okay until the guy planned to confess her with a bouquet of flowers. The super confused girl, who had zero love feelings towards him started to feel super guilty and uncomfortable around him.

Later on, she avoided that guy badly, ignored his messages and calls for a week. Then, the guy managed to meet her up and slow talked to her & said it’s okay to reject him, we can be just friends, he was cool about it and all. After that incident, he acted like nothing happened which make this girl started to feel confused about her feeling because she can’t stop thinking about him. He was on her mind 24/7. 

To add, this guy was okay with the rejection but he didn’t give up on her as he continued to being a super sweet boy bestfriend to her. Too many sweet little surprise with sweet poems and flowers and foods and his gentle behaviour started to make her heart melt. The girl wanted to be with this guy, as she couldn’t meet someone better than him ever after. But she can’t really be in a relationship. It’s forbidden for her to do so. She talked to the guy abt her situation and guess what this gentleman understood everything abt her and was willing to be okay with it.

Which means they stayed just friends until both of them are in their 20s, finished studies and ready to be in a relationship openly, without hiding to both of their families. Months to years, everything was just going good. Both of them finished college, they have to go back home, no more staying at dorms, no more time together. The guy gifted a really nice shoe to the girl with a cute lil card saying see you soon!! Good luck to our future. But little he did know, that was the last time ever he could see her.

She died.

The end

I just acted mature, that's all.
I had to react that way to unburden you.
That way, you'd feel less guilty.
But do you know that?
To tell the truth, i didn't want to be like this.

Assalamualaikum 

I'm becoming an online shopping monster, I'm seriously wasting a lot of money nowadays. I can see that, whenever I find a break time, I'm scrolling through an online shopping platform and adding stuff to my cart, It became a habit, a very bad one. Until I realized I hardly save money nowadays as my future saving as I did since I was 7. 

I have strictly warned myself to bring down my bad habits. Since that, I tried to find solution for this. The few things I found I can do with the money I have so I don't waste it on online shopping is, first of all I deleted some apps I often buy clothes and bags, as I already have enough of that things for now. Next is, I list the things I want badly and only buy it want I really really want it, not because I was bored. I also do add to cart and just wait, lol. I wait for discount or sale so I can save money. Yup, I'm trying really hard. I also did create another saving account in my bank account, so I save money in the form of fixed deposit monthly. I'm also learning about buying digital gold on online platform. You tube really do teach us so many things we don't learn in school. I have a lot of interest in buying gold as our saving and investment. But, I still have to learn and got to know about it fully before I start an gold investment, to make sure I don't lose anything and earn profit somehow. 

Hopefully, this all helps me overcome my online shopping addiction. 

Assalamualaikum & hi

Every time nampak subway je mesti singgah beli cookies dia. Memang super sedap & family saya semua suka cookies dia.

So at first saya tried to buat resepi sendiri & hasilnya kurang memuaskan, kalau baling cookies tu kepala orang boleh pecah. Keras nak mati. Patahlah gigi kalau makan cookies tu. Then, 2nd try saya adjust resepi dari YouTube, It's from an Indonesian lady, Kueh kering chip cookies. Oleh sebab dah tengok terlalu banyak resepi saya sendiri dah confius ni resepi dari siapa, tak ingat, tengok history pun pening.

All the things you need : 

90g gula kastor

155g gula perang

1 sk garam

115g buttercup

155g tepung gandum

1/2 sk baking powder

1 biji telur

1 sk esen vanila

chocolate chip

Procedure : 

- Campak campak je, yang penting chocolate chip tu masuk last & the dough tu need to be chilled 30min baru senang sikit nak buat bentuk bulat.

- Preheat 180 dc & bakar 12min

Tips : Add brown sugar to make it chewier

I saw a poem in Facebook today, and I fell in love.

If your sins are the size of mountain, 

Always remember HIS rahma is like,

The water that creates those humble canyons, 

Do not despair, 

He is the forgiving,

The ever pardoning,

If your pain is deeper than t he rifts beneath the surface of the earth

Always remember after every hardship

There is ease,

Do not despair,

Assalamualaikum

Yesterday I 

was clever

so I wanted

to change the world.

Today, I'm wise

so I'm changing myself

<3

I need to always remember this on thing,

key to be a better person,

day by day,

nothing is more important than,

a person who is willing to admit that,

we are not always right,

and I'm willing to do that,

I'm not always right.

The greatest lesson you can teach yourself is to be patient. Be patient when you're happy because happiness ends, and be patient when you're sad because sadness too ends. Nothing is constant. Everything is temporary, expect Allah, The only Everlasting.

They say there is a reason

They say time will heal

Neither time or reason

Will change the way I feel

Gone are the days

But in my heart

You are always there

The gates of memories 

Will never close

I miss you more than anybody know.

Al fatihah to my beloved appa cantik

Sesungguhnya rindu yang paling sakit adalah rindu pada orang yang dah meninggal dunia,

Rahsia orang, aku bakal bawak sampai mati -
Rahsia yang buat aku tak tenteram,
Tidur aku tak lena.
Hati aku sakit bagai tertusuk duri.
Terluka, pedih, kecewa.
Semua ada!
Jika aku cerita pada orang lain,
Walau ianya demi aku,
Kerana aku bagaikan depresi,
Bukan untukku buka aib dia,
Hidup bagai tidak bermakna bila ku tahu,
Rahsia dia, buatku binasa bersama.
Apakan daya, terpaksaku simpan rahsia ini kekubur :)
Untung kita, Allah tutup aib kita didunia.

Assalamualaikum

You are a story,

A little paragraph story that came to my life,

A story I would tell my future children,

How it felt like,

Sweet and sour,

Bitter and twisted.

Assalamualaikum

Bende yg saya nak sangat in future is good relationship with my beloved siblings. Saya nak kami semua sama macam sekarang, saling menyayangi antara satu sama lain. Even kitorang ada gaduh, itu kira bende biasalah, gaduh gaduh manja je. Harini gaduh, esok berbaik :) So, i want this forever. Bukan dengan adik beradik kandung je, dengan adik beradik saudara pun nak stay macam sekarang. Because our relationship is too precious, i appreciate every single moment in my life i spent with them.

I can say that I have an extremely good relationship with my siblings. I'm 20 year old female and have a sister 2 years older than me and 3 more brothers with a huge gap of years with me. I have close relationship with all of them but I'm closest to my small little brother, of course. Everyday after his school he comes into my room to just talk to me about his and my day. He is so kind and very mature for his age. We both have the same perspective on life so that's why I believe we are so close. He always says the nicest thing to me, kind hearted too. I love my other two brothers too, but nowadays I can feel that there are some gap between us. It's a little complicated. When they were little kids they used to follow my lead, but the older they got, they developed their own idea, the farther apart we got. I understand. Even we don't see eyes to eyes in many topic but there are few things that bring us together. We share a completely opposite brothers sisters relationship. We typically fight on everything but when time comes we stand together. My relationship my sister is pretty good, she is a very quite type, she is in her own world always, sometimes I feel like she is my little sister for me. I should have born first. We are like friends gossip and do shopping together. We rarely fight.

We aren't perfect and we love each other's imperfections because that is the one of the prime reasons why you need your siblings. I do something wrong, they scold me, I get angry, I realize my mistake. I approach them and say sorry, hugs and so on and also same goes to them. It is very common between us. 

A relationship no matter how much we fight among ourselves but ones someone come against one of us, we are united. I really hope we stay as now forever after even after all of us got married, have our own family, our relationship should stay as good as now. 

A relationship where we plan to trouble our mom together. A relationship where we embarrass each other intentionally. A lot more that I could not ever put it into words.

No one is perfect but I'm okay to ignore all the other faults because they're my blood.

Every single one of us do sin,

Nobody is perfect,

We are trying to,

We do mistake, 

We repent,

Stop thinking you're above everyone else,

Don't treat others like they are insignificant,

A person who is down today can climb up tomorrow,

Only the Almighty knows what the future holds.

Assalamualaikum

My very first k-drama is You're Beautiful, I started watching it when I was very young, I was just 13 at that time. I had a great experience of watching it. That drama made me fall in love with Korean drama. Especially oppa, there are a lot of handsome man in Korea!! It was the main reason why I became addicted to k-drama. 

Thereafter, I started watching every Korean drama that I came across and within a time period of 2 days I can complete a full completed 24 episodes of a drama. How crazy! I wouldn't eat or either sleep, I'll just focus on the drama. I didn't realize that I wasted a lot of my precious time of mine watching dramas though they were very entertaining that wasn't proper time to watch them all. I felt like I find my happiness in other world of drama that doesn't even exist, where I and my favorite character only present in that particular world, letting it take my mind and heart. At that moment, I realized that k-drama became my addiction. So I decided to overcome it by slowly. It was not easy, it may seem easy to do so but it to be honest it was really hard. Those time when I felt I should marathon whole drama, I convinced my mind not to do so. Instead I watch it with limit, 1 episode per day. Now, I still do watch k-drama but in control. It's not like you need to stop everything you like to save time, instead you should do it in a controlled way.

I'll just have fun watching handsome oppa and pretty unnies!! because my life is kind of boring and stress at the same time at least k-drama do give a little spark in my life.

Assalamualaikum,

So today,
Just after a few heartbreak without gap,
I'm disappointed again.

Wow, what a month!
Full of surprises,
That i didn't even ask.

July 2019 will be remembered as the worst month ever,
Heartbreak over heartbreak,
There were nothing special in this month,
There were no good news at all.

I'm tired,
Mentally & physically,
Crying,
Again & again.

It is no such things that i have no one to share,
I have a good listener,
But i want to keep it with me, forever.

Yesterday i was shocked because of my "friend's" problem,
But it had already happened,
So i can't do anything.

Urm, and today I'm still in shock because of someone,
But much more to disappointment, i was only shocked for a few moment, and yeaa~
Sad.

My chest had a really weird feeling, i was really in pain,
No words to describe,
But i tried my best to solve it & hoping for the best,
And i still believe the "someone", no matter what he do, i will correct it, for his/her better future.
I love you now & forever 

Assalamualaikum

How I mend a heart broken heart,

Pain,

It's getting harder to hide,

It's even harder to explain,

It's never easy,

I have to be strong and forge ahead,

Put a smile on my face as I walk out the door,

I cry all the time now, 

I used to think I was strong,

Now It's a struggle just to hold on,

To make it through the day,

Without someone asking if I'm okay.

I just need a plenty of time.

As others have done before,

Then I'll be able to start my normal life again,

As happy as before.

Assalamualaikum

When someone you trust betray you,
The feeling of betrayal,
It really hurt you know,
Don't trust people so easily,
Even it's your patner, siblings, relatives, friends.
I'm Just sayin,
I trust them tho,
That's the problem,
I hope nobody breaks my trust,
I just don't wanna be in pain.

To those who seek to change,

Please change with full of your heart,

Don't be like somebody i know,

"The somebody" pretended to change,

Then, we believe in things we see,

Then, betrayal, again and again.

Leaving scar....

Assalamualaikum,

Storytime :)

A unromantic not so love story between two college students. It began when this girl was a new student, everything was strange to her, she was quiet and shy to talk to others, she was so lonely and had no idea what was going on as they are students who just finished high school, everything was new to them, the college system and stuff. But, this one guy helped her to get comfortable from the day one, he helped her in everything, he arranged everything for her. Both of them become best friends since that day. 

Little did she know, the guy was already have feelings for her, the guy started to become clingy, sweet, protective towards her. Days to months, both of them became inseparable, they studied & scored top together, attended a lot of programs together, countless time doing assignments, projects and stuffs like that together. All was just okay until the guy planned to confess her with a bouquet of flowers. The super confused girl, who had zero love feelings towards him started to feel super guilty and uncomfortable around him.

Later on, she avoided that guy badly, ignored his messages and calls for a week. Then, the guy managed to meet her up and slow talked to her & said it’s okay to reject him, we can be just friends, he was cool about it and all. After that incident, he acted like nothing happened which make this girl started to feel confused about her feeling because she can’t stop thinking about him. He was on her mind 24/7. 

To add, this guy was okay with the rejection but he didn’t give up on her as he continued to being a super sweet boy bestfriend to her. Too many sweet little surprise with sweet poems and flowers and foods and his gentle behaviour started to make her heart melt. The girl wanted to be with this guy, as she couldn’t meet someone better than him ever after. But she can’t really be in a relationship. It’s forbidden for her to do so. She talked to the guy abt her situation and guess what this gentleman understood everything abt her and was willing to be okay with it.

Which means they stayed just friends until both of them are in their 20s, finished studies and ready to be in a relationship openly, without hiding to both of their families. Months to years, everything was just going good. Both of them finished college, they have to go back home, no more staying at dorms, no more time together. The guy gifted a really nice shoe to the girl with a cute lil card saying see you soon!! Good luck to our future. But little he did know, that was the last time ever he could see her.

She died.

The end

I just acted mature, that's all.
I had to react that way to unburden you.
That way, you'd feel less guilty.
But do you know that?
To tell the truth, i didn't want to be like this.

Assalamualaikum 

I'm becoming an online shopping monster, I'm seriously wasting a lot of money nowadays. I can see that, whenever I find a break time, I'm scrolling through an online shopping platform and adding stuff to my cart, It became a habit, a very bad one. Until I realized I hardly save money nowadays as my future saving as I did since I was 7. 

I have strictly warned myself to bring down my bad habits. Since that, I tried to find solution for this. The few things I found I can do with the money I have so I don't waste it on online shopping is, first of all I deleted some apps I often buy clothes and bags, as I already have enough of that things for now. Next is, I list the things I want badly and only buy it want I really really want it, not because I was bored. I also do add to cart and just wait, lol. I wait for discount or sale so I can save money. Yup, I'm trying really hard. I also did create another saving account in my bank account, so I save money in the form of fixed deposit monthly. I'm also learning about buying digital gold on online platform. You tube really do teach us so many things we don't learn in school. I have a lot of interest in buying gold as our saving and investment. But, I still have to learn and got to know about it fully before I start an gold investment, to make sure I don't lose anything and earn profit somehow. 

Hopefully, this all helps me overcome my online shopping addiction. 

Assalamualaikum & hi

Every time nampak subway je mesti singgah beli cookies dia. Memang super sedap & family saya semua suka cookies dia.

So at first saya tried to buat resepi sendiri & hasilnya kurang memuaskan, kalau baling cookies tu kepala orang boleh pecah. Keras nak mati. Patahlah gigi kalau makan cookies tu. Then, 2nd try saya adjust resepi dari YouTube, It's from an Indonesian lady, Kueh kering chip cookies. Oleh sebab dah tengok terlalu banyak resepi saya sendiri dah confius ni resepi dari siapa, tak ingat, tengok history pun pening.

All the things you need : 

90g gula kastor

155g gula perang

1 sk garam

115g buttercup

155g tepung gandum

1/2 sk baking powder

1 biji telur

1 sk esen vanila

chocolate chip

Procedure : 

- Campak campak je, yang penting chocolate chip tu masuk last & the dough tu need to be chilled 30min baru senang sikit nak buat bentuk bulat.

- Preheat 180 dc & bakar 12min

Tips : Add brown sugar to make it chewier

I saw a poem in Facebook today, and I fell in love.

If your sins are the size of mountain, 

Always remember HIS rahma is like,

The water that creates those humble canyons, 

Do not despair, 

He is the forgiving,

The ever pardoning,

If your pain is deeper than t he rifts beneath the surface of the earth

Always remember after every hardship

There is ease,

Do not despair,

Assalamualaikum

Yesterday I 

was clever

so I wanted

to change the world.

Today, I'm wise

so I'm changing myself

<3

I need to always remember this on thing,

key to be a better person,

day by day,

nothing is more important than,

a person who is willing to admit that,

we are not always right,

and I'm willing to do that,

I'm not always right.

The greatest lesson you can teach yourself is to be patient. Be patient when you're happy because happiness ends, and be patient when you're sad because sadness too ends. Nothing is constant. Everything is temporary, expect Allah, The only Everlasting.

They say there is a reason

They say time will heal

Neither time or reason

Will change the way I feel

Gone are the days

But in my heart

You are always there

The gates of memories 

Will never close

I miss you more than anybody know.

Al fatihah to my beloved appa cantik

Sesungguhnya rindu yang paling sakit adalah rindu pada orang yang dah meninggal dunia,

Rahsia orang, aku bakal bawak sampai mati -
Rahsia yang buat aku tak tenteram,
Tidur aku tak lena.
Hati aku sakit bagai tertusuk duri.
Terluka, pedih, kecewa.
Semua ada!
Jika aku cerita pada orang lain,
Walau ianya demi aku,
Kerana aku bagaikan depresi,
Bukan untukku buka aib dia,
Hidup bagai tidak bermakna bila ku tahu,
Rahsia dia, buatku binasa bersama.
Apakan daya, terpaksaku simpan rahsia ini kekubur :)
Untung kita, Allah tutup aib kita didunia.

Assalamualaikum

You are a story,

A little paragraph story that came to my life,

A story I would tell my future children,

How it felt like,

Sweet and sour,

Bitter and twisted.

Assalamualaikum

Bende yg saya nak sangat in future is good relationship with my beloved siblings. Saya nak kami semua sama macam sekarang, saling menyayangi antara satu sama lain. Even kitorang ada gaduh, itu kira bende biasalah, gaduh gaduh manja je. Harini gaduh, esok berbaik :) So, i want this forever. Bukan dengan adik beradik kandung je, dengan adik beradik saudara pun nak stay macam sekarang. Because our relationship is too precious, i appreciate every single moment in my life i spent with them.

I can say that I have an extremely good relationship with my siblings. I'm 20 year old female and have a sister 2 years older than me and 3 more brothers with a huge gap of years with me. I have close relationship with all of them but I'm closest to my small little brother, of course. Everyday after his school he comes into my room to just talk to me about his and my day. He is so kind and very mature for his age. We both have the same perspective on life so that's why I believe we are so close. He always says the nicest thing to me, kind hearted too. I love my other two brothers too, but nowadays I can feel that there are some gap between us. It's a little complicated. When they were little kids they used to follow my lead, but the older they got, they developed their own idea, the farther apart we got. I understand. Even we don't see eyes to eyes in many topic but there are few things that bring us together. We share a completely opposite brothers sisters relationship. We typically fight on everything but when time comes we stand together. My relationship my sister is pretty good, she is a very quite type, she is in her own world always, sometimes I feel like she is my little sister for me. I should have born first. We are like friends gossip and do shopping together. We rarely fight.

We aren't perfect and we love each other's imperfections because that is the one of the prime reasons why you need your siblings. I do something wrong, they scold me, I get angry, I realize my mistake. I approach them and say sorry, hugs and so on and also same goes to them. It is very common between us. 

A relationship no matter how much we fight among ourselves but ones someone come against one of us, we are united. I really hope we stay as now forever after even after all of us got married, have our own family, our relationship should stay as good as now. 

A relationship where we plan to trouble our mom together. A relationship where we embarrass each other intentionally. A lot more that I could not ever put it into words.

No one is perfect but I'm okay to ignore all the other faults because they're my blood.

Every single one of us do sin,

Nobody is perfect,

We are trying to,

We do mistake, 

We repent,

Stop thinking you're above everyone else,

Don't treat others like they are insignificant,

A person who is down today can climb up tomorrow,

Only the Almighty knows what the future holds.

Assalamualaikum

My very first k-drama is You're Beautiful, I started watching it when I was very young, I was just 13 at that time. I had a great experience of watching it. That drama made me fall in love with Korean drama. Especially oppa, there are a lot of handsome man in Korea!! It was the main reason why I became addicted to k-drama. 

Thereafter, I started watching every Korean drama that I came across and within a time period of 2 days I can complete a full completed 24 episodes of a drama. How crazy! I wouldn't eat or either sleep, I'll just focus on the drama. I didn't realize that I wasted a lot of my precious time of mine watching dramas though they were very entertaining that wasn't proper time to watch them all. I felt like I find my happiness in other world of drama that doesn't even exist, where I and my favorite character only present in that particular world, letting it take my mind and heart. At that moment, I realized that k-drama became my addiction. So I decided to overcome it by slowly. It was not easy, it may seem easy to do so but it to be honest it was really hard. Those time when I felt I should marathon whole drama, I convinced my mind not to do so. Instead I watch it with limit, 1 episode per day. Now, I still do watch k-drama but in control. It's not like you need to stop everything you like to save time, instead you should do it in a controlled way.

I'll just have fun watching handsome oppa and pretty unnies!! because my life is kind of boring and stress at the same time at least k-drama do give a little spark in my life.

Assalamualaikum,

So today,
Just after a few heartbreak without gap,
I'm disappointed again.

Wow, what a month!
Full of surprises,
That i didn't even ask.

July 2019 will be remembered as the worst month ever,
Heartbreak over heartbreak,
There were nothing special in this month,
There were no good news at all.

I'm tired,
Mentally & physically,
Crying,
Again & again.

It is no such things that i have no one to share,
I have a good listener,
But i want to keep it with me, forever.

Yesterday i was shocked because of my "friend's" problem,
But it had already happened,
So i can't do anything.

Urm, and today I'm still in shock because of someone,
But much more to disappointment, i was only shocked for a few moment, and yeaa~
Sad.

My chest had a really weird feeling, i was really in pain,
No words to describe,
But i tried my best to solve it & hoping for the best,
And i still believe the "someone", no matter what he do, i will correct it, for his/her better future.
I love you now & forever 

Assalamualaikum

How I mend a heart broken heart,

Pain,

It's getting harder to hide,

It's even harder to explain,

It's never easy,

I have to be strong and forge ahead,

Put a smile on my face as I walk out the door,

I cry all the time now, 

I used to think I was strong,

Now It's a struggle just to hold on,

To make it through the day,

Without someone asking if I'm okay.

I just need a plenty of time.

As others have done before,

Then I'll be able to start my normal life again,

As happy as before.

Assalamualaikum

When someone you trust betray you,
The feeling of betrayal,
It really hurt you know,
Don't trust people so easily,
Even it's your patner, siblings, relatives, friends.
I'm Just sayin,
I trust them tho,
That's the problem,
I hope nobody breaks my trust,
I just don't wanna be in pain.

To those who seek to change,

Please change with full of your heart,

Don't be like somebody i know,

"The somebody" pretended to change,

Then, we believe in things we see,

Then, betrayal, again and again.

Leaving scar....